I’m a “CRAZYINHEELS”  chick just trying to navigate through the oh… so confusing experiences of being in my twenties, trying to figure out who I am, where I’m going, my purpose in life, and what I want to be when I grow up (oh yea, I’m all grown up)… and I’m Bipolar!  As if life wasn’t hard enough already!

I like dresses and high heels, makeup and lip gloss, martinis and cosmos. I was born in heels and will someday run around heaven in heels. Don’t let the blonde hair fool you. I’ve got it together, brains and beauty. I do have blonde moments but that’s what makes me, me and gives others a laugh. I’m confident with myself and finally happy being me! You have to embrace who you are and just be you.

I’m engaged to the love of my life, my best friend. He accepts me for all that I am, “crazy” and all. We’ve been together for over seven years and in that seven years he has seen me at my worst… trust me!!! We’ve been through more sh%$ than couples that have married for twenty years. We are finally at a happy place that is full of love and support. I have a feeling that this is due in part to being medicated (I’m a big advocate of medication!).

I’m surrounded by loving and supportive family; mother, sister, and brother. Without the love of my mother I wouldn’t have made it this far. She has been nurturing, understanding, loving, firm when she has needed to be, and most importantly she has never judged me for the stupid (yes, very stupid!!!) things that I have done. I’m lucky to know and feel unconditional love. Like my fiancé my sister has also seen me at my worst and loves me anyway. She has helped me through some of my darkest hours. My brother is the strong but silent type. I know that if I needed him he would be there for me in a heartbeat.

My absolutely fabulous nurse practitioner/therapist has been with me for over fifteen years and has been right there with me, guiding me into sanity! I think we’ve finally come up with the right formula of medication to help me live a “normal” (who knows what that is) and happy life.

I’ve now been able to hold down a job for over four years. I can concentrate and excel. I’m happy with what I do and love the people I work with. My life wouldn’t be the same without them. Whether they know it or not this job came into my life right when I needed it to. It has grounded me and made me into a better person and given me more confidence.