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Working Through My Emotions

Nicole — Mon, 15 Mar 2010 23:04:59 +0000

I’m not going to say that I’m feeling 100% better than Friday but I’m making progress. I went to my Grandpas for dinner last night and when I was faced with the flooding of emotional sadness and grief for my Grandma as I walked in, I embraced the feelings and took a minute away from everyone to cry. I’m starting to feel like some of the tension held up in my body from all of these emotions is finally escaping. Every time I cry I feel like I take one step closer to life without anxiety and the lump in my throat. I’ve pushed these feelings deep down for too long! I’ve been on a new med (Saphris) for almost a week now and feel like my overall mood is beginning to lift. I felt like I was stuck on an emotional rollercoaster that kept flying right past the stopping point, no one was in control. I feel a little foggy in the morning and sometimes feel like I’m lucky I can find my way to work :p but other than that it seems to be doing the job (without the weight gain!). For now I’mstrolling through every day (in heels of course) with a renewed sense of happiness because of the new meds and my ability to finally allow myself to grieve. – XOXO CrazyInHeels

Tools For Sanity

Nicole — Thu, 04 Feb 2010 23:19:05 +0000

I’m back to seeing my psychologist. I decided that I’ve been through a lot in the last six months and I need to talk and walk through all of my feelings. A girl can only handle so much! The tension, anxiety, stress, and lump in my throat are going to make me age faster and that is not allowed!!! As I walked out of the office (in heels non the less) I felt some of my anxiety melt away. As I start to understand where it is coming from, I can now work on dealing with the underlying problem. Admitting you’re crazy is the first step, then you must do all you can to get the tools to help you live a normal life, it’s possible! – XOXO CrazyInHeels

Take Time To Relax

Nicole — Sat, 30 Jan 2010 19:21:55 +0000

I’ve had a lot of stress and anxiety in my life in the last few weeks therefore my body has had a reaction. I’ve had a constant lump in my throat for at least two weeks. I feel like I’m carrying so my tension in my neck and shoulders I mine as well be carrying the world. By the end of the work day I lose all focus, want to scream, my neck, shoulders, and head would ache. I finally decided to go and get a massage in hopes of having a moment to relax and release all of my anxiety and stress. The massage therapist said I had a lot of knots in my upper back and shoulders and that she should focus on the upper half of body rather than a full body massage so she could work out the knots that would hopefully relieve some of the tensioin… I kindly agreed. As she worked out the knots and pushed from the bottom of my back to the top of my kneck I envisioned all of the stress and anxiety being pushed from my body. The money I spent on that massage was well worth it (why are they so expensive)! My body was instantly relived from so much tension. My point in this is that you MUST always listen to your body and do something to help you relax and feel better. I’m also going to start yoga to help me destress my life, you’ve got to take time for yourself… quite time is a must! – XOXO CrazyInHeels