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Busy, Busy, Busy

Nicole — Tue, 06 Jul 2010 20:16:29 +0000

I think that “busy” is probably my most common word right now! I’m constantly on the go with all of the bridal preparations. I’m so happy to be doing great on my meds, we’ve finally found the right “cocktail” as some would say. I feel like I have everything under control, I can manage the stress well, and most importantly I wake up in a good mood! Oh, and the other good factor is that the new med (Seroquel XR) is not making me gain weight… thank goodness, I have a dress to fit into! When the stress builds, and it does, I don’t lose my mind like I do un-medicated. There are no crying spells because I can’t find a parking spot, I’m not agitated at the many people I have to talk too, and I have patience. We all know how all of those crazy emotions fly right out of us when we’re manic depressed or even manic, and I guess you could even say this happens when you think you feel “normal” and believe me… normal is not part of my vocabulary! For now I’m in control & enjoying every moment (except when people piss me off for a moment, and that has happened). Although I’m a little crazy (or a lot) I can still manage to go to work, work on schoolwork, work on a website, and plan a wedding… this is a huge accomplishment! Perhaps I should go shoe shopping as a type of reward for good behavior ;p – XOXO CrazyInHeels

Getting Married in 86 Days

Nicole — Thu, 24 Jun 2010 03:59:52 +0000

OMG, we just signed a contract to get married in less than three months, hence the hiatus for a week! How in the world is a “crazy” girl who has a full time job, going back to school, and working on a website supposed to get all of this done?! I think I should start a new blog that tracks my progress as the weeks fly by. So… I have one wish.. to be manic during the process ;p seriously I could use the extra energy right about now. Secondly, I hope all of this doesn’t trigger some manic depression, with all the added stress. I don’t necessarily see it as stress, this is such an exciting time, but… things are soooo busy for me (to say the least)!!! Wish me luck! – XOXO CrazyInHeels

One Foot In Front Of The Other

Nicole — Thu, 22 Apr 2010 20:07:42 +0000

Sometimes I have to remind myself that I can only think about one day at a time and one foot in front of the other. I must allow for patience, very hard sometimes! I think I’ve finally found the right med, and I’m not gaining weight, yay! For the last month I’ve felt like a human guinea pig as I tried three different medications. It was definitely frustrating, to say the least. I’m happy to say that I can finally see the light at the end of the tunnel… “normal life” I’m thankful that I was able to take the week off so I could focus on getting better without the added stress. I’m actually excited to go back to work because I’m going stir crazy and day time television sucks the intelligence right out of a person. I’ve kicked my heels up for long enough, it’s time to get back to reality… & being happy!!! – XOXO CrazyInHeels

Time Management

Nicole — Tue, 23 Feb 2010 23:24:00 +0000

I’m trying to work on time management in the hopes of having less stress which in turn will lead to less anxiety (I hope!). I’ve made a list of things that I need to get done in the next few weeks and am putting them in order of importance. Just because I’m “crazy” doesn’t mean that I need to stop LIVING! Yes, I’m emotional; Yes, I’m sensitive; Yes, I need rest; Yes, I’m easily overwhelmed at times; Yes, I talk to myself sometimes.. hahaha, but I can still live and make something out of myself. I might have a mental breakdown in the middle of week or even my day, but I’ll keep going. It’s not where I’ve been but where I’m going! – XOXO CrazyInHeels

Tools For Sanity

Nicole — Thu, 04 Feb 2010 23:19:05 +0000

I’m back to seeing my psychologist. I decided that I’ve been through a lot in the last six months and I need to talk and walk through all of my feelings. A girl can only handle so much! The tension, anxiety, stress, and lump in my throat are going to make me age faster and that is not allowed!!! As I walked out of the office (in heels non the less) I felt some of my anxiety melt away. As I start to understand where it is coming from, I can now work on dealing with the underlying problem. Admitting you’re crazy is the first step, then you must do all you can to get the tools to help you live a normal life, it’s possible! – XOXO CrazyInHeels

Paranoid Thoughts

Nicole — Fri, 08 Jan 2010 23:38:48 +0000

A tree has politely decided to grow right over the pipe that provides cable and Internet for us so I’m disconnected from the world for another 2 weeks My anxiety is still high from all of the stress over the last month. I’m getting settled into the new home but I’m still scared. Where does this paranoia come from? I had a glass of wine to help calm me down but my nerves were so rattled that it made my stomach hurt. My thoughts are consumed of being attacked. I’m not exactly sure of how to get rid of them?? I was having a lovely conversation with my fiance about my crazy thoughts, stress, anxiety, and now… my new found paranoia. He looked at me and said “Great something else you have wrong!” What the hell kind of answer is that, I was thinking the same thing but only I’m aloud to say something like that. I’m a CrazyInHeels Bipolar Chick with Anxiety and Paranoia. I wonder if there is a new med I can add to my already full pill case?! Hopefully no one breaks into the house before I check in again :p – XOXO CrazyInHeels