Posts Tagged ‘Shopping’

I’ve successfully made it through shopping, wrapping, baking, being a maid of honor in a December wedding followed by Christmas the week after without ending up in the psych ward, yay! Now I just need to conquer New Years and moving. I took a lunch today and ran to the store to buy a new pair of heels to match my dress for New Years, so that put a smile on my face. When I was walking back to my car I started to think about my mood. I feel like I’m here but that I don’t have the full range of emotions that I’ve had before… I mean what girl doesn’t get super excited after buying a new pair of  heels?!  I’m not easily excited and I’m definitely not depressed, thank goodness. I’m here but I feel bland. Is this just something we deal with because if we don’t take our meds we lose it? Will I feel like this forever or is my body still adjusting to my new meds? I miss the total crazy days when I would wake up at 5:00 AM with out the alarm clock and be super excited about the day. A therapist once told me that no matter how good those hypo mania feelings were it still wasn’t a normal feeling… damn it, I really like those feelings! I have the next four days off so I’ll be all around town running errands, shopping, socializing, celebrating New Years, packing, moving and hopefully I’ll end up relaxing with a great glass of wine at some point. A girls gotta kick up her heels once in a while.  – XOXO CrazyInHeels

I’ve been on the move since last Wednesday,I’ve barely had time to breathe.  This is when it’s soooo important for me to know what my limits are and more importantly for me to not go beyond them. How do you take time for yourself when you’re so close to Christmas but still have so much to do? Yesterday I felt the anxiety kick in around 9:30 pm when I realized that I had not stopped since I woke up.  A crazy girl has got to take a step back, kick up her heels, and relax every once in a while. If I dont I will turn into a cranky, tired, frustrated, angry… ok I can say it… “bitch” to all of those around me (God be with them). I can get that way in .2 seconds, don’t let the cute face fool you. Do you have any idea the emotions that are flowing through my body after I have worked all day, almost ran someone over in the parking lot, walked around the mall in my heels for two hours, drive home in traffic, walk the dog, make dinner and then… have sex?! No wonder I’m crazy! I told my fiance last night that I MUST relax at somepoint over the next twenty four hours because this is the time that I can “trigger” myself into a totally crazy state of mind. I’m trying to remember what the Holidays are all about so I can appreciate all that have in my life. I might be a crazy chicwith lots of shoes but I definately have a lot to be thankful for! – XOXO CrazyInHeels

I have so much going on right now. Christmas cards, christmas shopping, moving, and my friend is getting married this weekend. This is enough to take me back to crazy world. I’ve definately tested my limits today. I have n’t cried (except when I read over my maid of honor speech) but I’ve come close. I can feel that tension that rises in my body that makes me feel like I’m on the verge of insanity. My patience was wearing thin at the end of the day and I was easily frustrated. It’s almost midnight and I’m still going. I’m going to have to take it easy tomorrow. I’ll relax more and stay away from any busy shopping areas, they are too frustrating after a while! If I push myself too much I’ll put myself into a bad mood that I won’t be able to shake for a couple of days, no bueno. I’m thankful to have meds and feel as happy as I do for now, things are good, hectic but good!!! -XOXO CrazyInHeels

Holiday shopping can drive any sane person crazy but it can drive an already crazy person to the brink of insanity! As I continue onward through my holiday shopping I’m constantly pushed to my limits. There are people everywhere, babies crying, kids runing around and screaming, bright lights, long lines, decisions to be made, and crazy drivers in parking lots. The amount of stimulation that we get while out running around to find that perfect gift is incredible. I try to do a little bit everyday so I’m not forced to spend 8 hrs at the mall on a Saturday (yikes). I know that because I’m crazy I need to set limits on my daily activities to make sure I don’t lose my mind. If I try to do too much I’m impatient, cranky, tired, frustrated and could probably start crying if I can’t find a parking spot… seriously! -XOXO CrazyInHeels