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Crazy Times, Happy to be Medicated!

Nicole — Tue, 29 Jun 2010 22:47:42 +0000

Remaining happy and positive about my upcoming events, busy but happy! Unfortunately I’m not feeling manic but I’m still able to have enough energy to get done what I need to get done. Weddings can get so “political” when you least expect it, I never thought I would feel that way… what’s a gril to do?? They say it’s “your special day”, whatever you want to do, you do… but that’s not always the case! I’m glad I’m medicated and smart enough to know when to slow down and when to say no. Surviving in this world on a day to day basis can be quite challenging, even more so when you’re blonde… oh…and crazy, OMG! Sometimes I want to scream at the top of my lungs and wave my white high heels in the air (yes, I most ceartinly have a pair). I’m glad I’m at a stable point with my mood and my meds because if I was working full time, going to school, and planning a wedding I would lose my mind for sure, probably come to work with two different heels on ;p – XOXO CrazyInHeels

I Surrender

Nicole — Wed, 10 Mar 2010 00:34:55 +0000

Still going crazy! I’m at the end of my rope, I’m going to see the doctor in half an hour… thank God! My anxiety and agitation are at an all new high. I feel like screaming, crying, yelling, kicking and running. I feel like all my emotions are wound up tight in my head and ready to burst, my head aches. It’s moments like this that make you want to kick up your heels and wave your white flag “I surrender, I surrender”. I know it will pass but WTF I hate this!!! Ok, I’m done complaining. I’m thinking positive, positive, positive thoughts; shopping, manicures, pedicures, massages, shopping, new pair of heels, more shopping… starting to smile This will pass, this will pass. TaTa for now. – XOXO CrazyInHeels

Take Time To Relax

Nicole — Sat, 30 Jan 2010 19:21:55 +0000

I’ve had a lot of stress and anxiety in my life in the last few weeks therefore my body has had a reaction. I’ve had a constant lump in my throat for at least two weeks. I feel like I’m carrying so my tension in my neck and shoulders I mine as well be carrying the world. By the end of the work day I lose all focus, want to scream, my neck, shoulders, and head would ache. I finally decided to go and get a massage in hopes of having a moment to relax and release all of my anxiety and stress. The massage therapist said I had a lot of knots in my upper back and shoulders and that she should focus on the upper half of body rather than a full body massage so she could work out the knots that would hopefully relieve some of the tensioin… I kindly agreed. As she worked out the knots and pushed from the bottom of my back to the top of my kneck I envisioned all of the stress and anxiety being pushed from my body. The money I spent on that massage was well worth it (why are they so expensive)! My body was instantly relived from so much tension. My point in this is that you MUST always listen to your body and do something to help you relax and feel better. I’m also going to start yoga to help me destress my life, you’ve got to take time for yourself… quite time is a must! – XOXO CrazyInHeels