Posts Tagged ‘Relax’

I’ve been busy working around the house this weekend. Sometimes that’s just as exhausting as running around all day. I’m getting better at slowing down and saying no so that I can take time for me and relax in order to bring my thoughts and feelings back to a slower speed. Being “crazy” has forced me to take a closer look at my life and adjust accordingly. I’m at a point where things are good. I’m able to get out of bed and feel as though I have a purpose. My thoughts are usually positive but I still struggle with anxiety, I’ve GOT to take control of my thoughts. It will happen! I’m here in this moment and excited that today is good for me. I’m starting to find that middle ground somewhere between Manic & Depressed. My depression has subsided & the grief from the loss of manic is passing. I’m happy being in the middle as close to normal as I can get - XOXO CrazyInHeels

I’m not sure if my meds are working particularly great today or if it’s because it’s Friday (or both) but I’m in a great mood today. The anxiety about my anxiety that camps out in my throat is not as bad as it normally is, at this moment. I’m happy to be me and happy to be at the emotional mood I’m in at this moment. All I can do is be present in this moment. I’m making an effort to relax & take time for me. If I’m constantly on the go I know that at some point I’ll come to a screeching halt (lose my mind) not a pretty site! Since I’m now going to be tackling the art of “Cognitive Thinking” I might grab a book and read up. I need to get a better control of my thoughts ASAP!!! (say a prayer!) - XOXO CrazyInHeels

I’ve  had a lot of stress and anxiety in my life in the last few weeks therefore my body has had a reaction. I’ve had a constant lump in my throat for at least two weeks. I feel like I’m carrying so my tension in my neck and shoulders I mine as well be carrying the world. By the end of the work day I lose all focus, want to scream, my neck, shoulders, and head would ache. I finally decided to go and get a massage in hopes of having a moment to relax and release all of my anxiety and stress. The massage therapist said I had a lot of knots in my upper back and shoulders and that she should focus on the upper half of body rather than a full body massage so she could work out the knots that would hopefully relieve some of the tensioin… I kindly agreed. As she worked out the knots and pushed from the bottom of my back to the top of my kneck I envisioned all of the stress and anxiety being pushed from my body. The money I spent on that massage was well worth it (why are they so expensive)! My body was instantly relived from so much tension. My point in this is that you MUST always listen to your body and do something to help you relax and feel better. I’m also going to start yoga to help me destress my life, you’ve got to take time for yourself… quite time is a must! – XOXO CrazyInHeels

Thank goodness I finally got an alarm system!!!!!!!!! YAY! Best day of my life. I’m still waiting on the internet and cable so until then it’s hard for me to let you all know the fabulous crazy thoughts that are flying through my mind. I’ll be up and running on Sunday… I hope - XOXO CrazyInHeels 

I’ve been on the move since last Wednesday,I’ve barely had time to breathe.  This is when it’s soooo important for me to know what my limits are and more importantly for me to not go beyond them. How do you take time for yourself when you’re so close to Christmas but still have so much to do? Yesterday I felt the anxiety kick in around 9:30 pm when I realized that I had not stopped since I woke up.  A crazy girl has got to take a step back, kick up her heels, and relax every once in a while. If I dont I will turn into a cranky, tired, frustrated, angry… ok I can say it… “bitch” to all of those around me (God be with them). I can get that way in .2 seconds, don’t let the cute face fool you. Do you have any idea the emotions that are flowing through my body after I have worked all day, almost ran someone over in the parking lot, walked around the mall in my heels for two hours, drive home in traffic, walk the dog, make dinner and then… have sex?! No wonder I’m crazy! I told my fiance last night that I MUST relax at somepoint over the next twenty four hours because this is the time that I can “trigger” myself into a totally crazy state of mind. I’m trying to remember what the Holidays are all about so I can appreciate all that have in my life. I might be a crazy chicwith lots of shoes but I definately have a lot to be thankful for! – XOXO CrazyInHeels

I have so much going on right now. Christmas cards, christmas shopping, moving, and my friend is getting married this weekend. This is enough to take me back to crazy world. I’ve definately tested my limits today. I have n’t cried (except when I read over my maid of honor speech) but I’ve come close. I can feel that tension that rises in my body that makes me feel like I’m on the verge of insanity. My patience was wearing thin at the end of the day and I was easily frustrated. It’s almost midnight and I’m still going. I’m going to have to take it easy tomorrow. I’ll relax more and stay away from any busy shopping areas, they are too frustrating after a while! If I push myself too much I’ll put myself into a bad mood that I won’t be able to shake for a couple of days, no bueno. I’m thankful to have meds and feel as happy as I do for now, things are good, hectic but good!!! -XOXO CrazyInHeels