Posts Tagged ‘Positive’

I was so excited yesterday because the Hypo mania decided to pay me a visit… awesome! but, of course, today I’m feeling a little bit moody and “bitchy” I suppose!I guess I didn’t really understand that I could have the ups and downs even with the meds, learning my lesson. I definitely don’t mind the ups (Hypo mania) or the “normal” state of mind that the medication is responsible for but the depressed, moody, bitchy, sensitive, and anxious feelings (just to name a few) I’d rather just kick in the ass (with my pointiest of pointy high heels) GOODBYE! I try to stay positive, most of the time, but for now I’de rather bitch and complain about the drastic swings of my mood from happy to sad, patient to inpatient, excited to anxious and oh… let’s through in a little bit (oh fuck it I’ll be honest) A LOT of anxiety!!! and see how this girls handles life… WTF!!!!! -XOXO CrazyInHeels

Would I really want to feel like a normal twenty something chic trying to navigate through life??? I don’t think it would be such an adventure! Being crazy has allowed me to love more, cry more, feel more, and do things I would never do if I was normal, I suppose (is this good or bad?). How would the story of “My Life” go? I wish I could watch my life on a DVD and have the option to view the different endings, but I can’t (bummer). So if I can’t see the future I guess I’ll work on the present moment. The best I can do for today with what I have is go to see my doctors, take my meds, take time for myself, and stay positive in hopes of staying on an even playing field. When I do all of these things I have a clear mind to help me make sense of this crazy life and make choices that are good for myself and others around me. This story will end good!!! – XOXO CrazyInHeels

I’m excited that it’s one day closer to Thanksgiving. I’m getting through this crazy hectic week on my own two “heels” with a smile on my face. I have a lot of stress around me but I’m keeping a positive spirit. I’m glad I’m not confined to my bead in a horrible mood crying every five minutes, that was horrible! My thoughts are slowly returning to a positive state of mind full of family, friends, shopping, love, and laughter. My life isn’t perfect and there’s absolutely no way I can be happy all the time but I’m more equipped to deal with the hard days and refrain from crying on a regular basis. I’m calling friends again, making time to see family, keeping the house clean, the laundry washed, and dinner ready. All of these things had fallen off of my to-do list for the last few months. I’m sure when those around us watch us slowly slip away into our own “hell” ( if you will) it’s extremely hard and frustrating for them but when they see us start living again it can be exciting. My fiance told me last night he was happy to see me back again and not to leave for a long long time… hopefully that happens!!! – XOXO CrayInHeels

I’ve lived my life with meds and without meds, which do I prefer you ask… WITH MEDS!!! I can’t even begin to tell you how much more manageable my life is now medicated. Being “crazy” is like having a black cloud in your brain that paralyzes your rational thought process, pours sadness throughout every bone in your body, and fills your mind with anger and frustration.

Yes, we are fu*&$%* “CRAZY” but we should embrace this craziness and learn how to turn this negative into a positive. I know that sometimes our lives can be extremely difficult and complicated but you’ve got to find something that makes you happy. Now, I’m not saying that you should just snap out of it and get happy damnit!!! I know that this is simply not possible, but I am saying that when you are happy… talk about it, write about it… the good emotions. Journaling is such a good idea. I like to look back and read about all the good moods I was in when I’m having a bad day, it helps! You can get out all those dark feelings, that’s good, but you need to find a way to bring yourself back to the “good” side. You have to remember to share all the fun, happy, positive things in your life with yourself so you have something to hang onto when you’re in the dark. Doing so will help you remember the good things. – XOXO CrazyInHeels