Posts Tagged ‘Panic’

We’ve already established the fact that I”m CRAZY, no doubt! I’m facing the fact that I’m a big fat scardie cat. Somewhere along my 28 years, for whatever reason, I’ve picked up a fear of dying. Great, something else to add to my list of crazy features. I’m scared that someone somewhere is going to snatch me, torture me and leave me to die. I think I’ve watched to many scary movies and Law & Order re-runs. I think my fear get’s worse the older I get, why is that?! Is there some other pill that I can add to my “medcation cocktail” that can erase my fears? If anyone out there finds it let me know ASAP, until them…. I’m shakin in my heels! - XOXO CrazyInHeels

The anxiety subsided last night but has so politely decided to kick up her heels again and plant herself in my thoughts, haunting me. I have a huge lump of tension in my throat that I can’t shake away for the life of me and I feel like my heart is about to jump out of my chest. I wish I had a “normal” pill that I could take to make these feelings go away. I haven’t felt like this for a couple of weeks. If I know what these feelings are and they eventually go away then why the hell must I focus on every symptom and blow it out of proportion in my thoughts only to intensify the feelings? I try to make myself not think about it but the feelings consume my every thought. It’s the only thing I can focus on. Forget getting my work done, thinking about what’s for dinner, having a normal conversation… my mind is in a state of panic.

- XOXO CrazyInHeels