Posts Tagged ‘Normal’

I think that “busy” is probably my most common word right now! I’m constantly on the go with all of the bridal preparations. I’m so happy to be doing great on my meds, we’ve finally found the right “cocktail” as some would say. I feel like I have everything under control, I can manage the stress well, and most importantly I wake up in a good mood! Oh, and the other good factor is that the new med (Seroquel XR) is not making me gain weight… thank goodness, I have a dress to fit into! When the stress builds, and it does, I don’t lose my mind like I do un-medicated. There are no crying spells because I can’t find a parking spot, I’m not agitated at the many people I have to talk too, and I have patience. We all know how all of those crazy emotions fly right out of us when we’re manic depressed or even manic, and I guess you could  even say this happens when you think you feel “normal” and believe me… normal is not part of my vocabulary! For now I’m in control & enjoying every moment (except when people piss me off for a moment, and that has happened). Although I’m a little crazy (or a lot) I can still manage to go to work, work on schoolwork, work on a website, and plan a wedding… this is a huge accomplishment! Perhaps I should go shoe shopping as a type of reward for good behavior ;p – XOXO CrazyInHeels

I stumbled upon this article today and thought I would pass it on. For those of you that are crazy maybe this will make you feel normal… or you can relate… for which I can only laugh because I most certainly can, hahaha!

http://www.rd.com/living-healthy/are-you-normal-or-nuts-your-questions-answered/article177191.html

- XOXO CrazyInHeels

I’ve successfully made it through an entire week of work without losing my mind, so to speak! This was the first full week of work I’ve had in a while, the last two months had been horrible. I love it when I find the right “cocktail” of meds, not an easy task! Nothing like a crazy blond girl running around in her heels crying for no reason, those days are gone for now! Unless I see a really sappy commercial or read a great Hallmark card, yes… I’m that girl! My days are back to being full of fun, friends, laughing, and most importantly… shopping! Don’t worry I’m not “Manic” shopping, I’m reasonably shopping ;p if there is such a thing. Not sure what I’m doing tonight but I know it will at least involve a glass of wine and relaxing. - XOXO CrazyInHeels

I started saying OMG making fun of everyone that says it because everyone abbreviates everything and it seems like such a “tweeny” think to do (is that even the right label??) but then I started saying it ALL the time, negating all reason for saying it in the first place! OMG!! HAHA Anyways, back to my life, which is sooo normal it’s crazy! I’m so happy that we have FINALLY found the right cocktail of medications again. If you’re in the middle of a med change, or need to make a med change, or you’re so sad right now… please know that it’ll pass! Go to the doctor & work with them on starting meds or simply making some adjustments. There is no reason for you to continue living in sadness, moodiness, craziness, agitation, and frustration… come to the light! I’m fully medicated and loving life again, heels and all! I’m able to meet with friend for a martini, shop at the mall w/out losing my mind when I can’t find a parking spot, enjoy calling friends to catch up, enjoy going to work, and of course getting dressed up for a night on the town…. heels… check… dress… check… makeup… check… I feel alive again!- XOXO CrazyInHeels

Crazy busy right now, wearin down the heels of my heels ;p I’m glad to be feeling like a “normal” person that can function in the real world! The days are busy and can be very long but I’m living and learning with a normal state of mind, well… as normal as I can get?! I’m glad to leave behind the sad bottomless pit that I was stuck whirling aimlessly around for weeks. I feel like I feel more, love more, and live more because I’m blessed with this fabulous “mental disorder”. I experienced the worst of the worst but it makes me appreciate the best of the best! My emotions run deeper than most as my mind wanders to the extreme side of every emotion. Happy for now and enjoying ever minute of it! – XOXO CrazyInHeels

Where am I today… somewhere in between normal and crazy. I guess maybe this is where I’m supposed to be since I’m “crazy”. The last week has been rough. I’m happy and normal all day and then something switches to the on position and I’m angry, sad and agitated… WTF?! We’re adjusting my meds accordingly, hoping to get to the exact dosage my body needs, tricky task I must say. In the mean time I feel happy at times but with the lingering possibility that I can go from zero to crazy in point two seconds. I guess sometimes you just have to grab on and hold on to the possibility that “normal” will return, at least I hope. The feelings of “losing my mind” will slowly slip into yesterdays memory. For now, I’ll hope for a best and enjoy my time off as I travel along the journey… back to normal! – XOXO CrazyInHeels

I’ve had a rough couple of days! Have you ever tried to live a normal life while going absolutely crazy in the inside?! I’m in the middle of a med change so my emotions have been all over the place. I try to go through the motions just to get to the next day in hopes of feeling better… but… still trying to get to that point. No one said being “crazy” was going to be easy. I keep telling myself that “this will pass” but you can only say it so many times! I’m hoping that when I wake up in the morning I’ll feel normal again (whatever the hell that means). I’m working on my positive thinking and am happy for the great care I receive and supportive friends and family. I have so much to be thankful for and I can see the end of the tunnel – XOXO CrazyInHeels