Posts Tagged ‘Missing’

Thanksgiving will be the first holiday that I will spend grieving the loss of Grandma. I’ve already cried while leaving the grocery store. I see all of the holiday foods to buy and it makes me sad to know that she won’t be the one cooking the fabulous dinner. How does one live up to Grandmas cooking?! Sometimes when I get sad I push the sadness away which is out of character for me. Today I let it takeover and I had a moment of sadness. I was wondering if it’s because my medicine hasn’t kicked in yet and I’m emotional anyways right now but I feel it was different. I can start to feel the meds working but it’s definitely not at it’s full potential. My sadness came from my heart. I truly miss her and I know that when we get over to see Grandpa it will be sad not to see her running around the kitchen and even more sad not to see her sitting at the edge of the table across from the man she was married to for 59 years. I don’t think I’m being too emotional, I shouldn’t feel ashamed of being sad, like I’m an emotional crazy girl that cries over everything. My tears are genuine and I”m going to let them fall as they will and know that it’s ok to acknowledge her and my feelings. I miss her so very much!!! – XOXO CrazyInHeels