Posts Tagged ‘Meds’

Happy that I am consistently waking up in a good mood and that I’m able to get myself out of bed. I’m still not a morning person but I feel as though I have a reason to get out of bed. Last night I was relieved that my anxiety did not make it’s daily visit. I went home and was able to cook dinner, clean up, do laundry, and catch up with friends all with a happy attitude It’s crazy to think that because of a few small pills the “crazy” thoughts and depression are subdued. – CrazyInHeels

Would I really want to feel like a normal twenty something chic trying to navigate through life??? I don’t think it would be such an adventure! Being crazy has allowed me to love more, cry more, feel more, and do things I would never do if I was normal, I suppose (is this good or bad?). How would the story of “My Life” go? I wish I could watch my life on a DVD and have the option to view the different endings, but I can’t (bummer). So if I can’t see the future I guess I’ll work on the present moment. The best I can do for today with what I have is go to see my doctors, take my meds, take time for myself, and stay positive in hopes of staying on an even playing field. When I do all of these things I have a clear mind to help me make sense of this crazy life and make choices that are good for myself and others around me. This story will end good!!! – XOXO CrazyInHeels

Checked in with my doctor (Nurse Practitioner) yesterday for a med check and everything seems to be looking better now. I think I’m finally out of my depression and back to my normal self, half a year later! I wake up on time, work all day with focus, get excited about things in my life that make me happy, and spend more time with friends. It’s nice when people around me notice a difference and let me know. I’m going to check in with my psychologist just to get some guidance on an even better mindset & help me with grieving the loss of someone close. Thank god for therapists, every one should have one on their speed dial life is so much more manageable with one whether you’re crazy or not. – XOXO CrazyInHeels

You know your meds are working when you get through a busy Monday at work, cook dinner, and survive the grocery store a week before Thanksgiving, all with out crying and wanting to kill someone! Today was a good day. I was sooo busy at work all day long and I was still in a good mood when I left. This hasn’t happened in the last few weeks. I wish I could put into words the excitement that I have for feeling normal again. I have a busy week planned full of cooking and more cooking. I’m back to me and just in time to enjoy the holidays. – XOXO CrazyInHeels

I finally had a goo, d day, I’m starting to feel better! I hope I don’t report differently tomorrow. The last few weeks have been such a roller coaster. I actually had enough energy to clean the house, do the laundry, and make dinner… all in the same day! That hasn’t happened in sooo long. Praise Jesus, I think the meds are working!!! It’s hard to get through the bad times but when you get to the good times you have a renewed sense of hope, a hope of living. I might be crazy but when you get down to it I”m just a girl trying to find herself in this crazy life we find ourselves in when we’re in our twenties. – XOXO CrazyInHeels

I’m a few weeks into my new medicine and feel like I’ve only reached a half way point. I’m not feeling 100% myself.  We’re approaching the Holidays fast and I need a pill that works ASAP, I don’t have time to waste. It can be so frustrating tyring to find a pill that works let alone the strength that you need  to get to, to make you feel better. I’m trying to be patient but it definately gets frustrating at times. Sometimes I wonder if I even remember how it feels to be normal. Am I ever going to be happy being normal when I know how FABULOUS it is to by hypo-mania?I’m going to increase my meds yet again and I’m expecting to have the side effects again as my body gets used to the dose. I hang onto the fact that happiness is within reach. -XOXO CrazyInHeels

If you read the list of possible side effects from a medication that you are about to take, you probably wouldn’t take it. Are all the side effects worth the hopefully positive effect the pill will have on you? My body is still trying to get used to me new med Tegretol. In the 28 yrs that I’ve been alive I have NEVER had any side effects from any medication until now. I’m just trying to make it threw the day without throwing up, falling over being I”m so dizzy, and funtioning with a full hlown headache. I’m hoping tomorrow is better. – XOXO CrazyInHeels