Posts Tagged ‘Meds’

I think that “busy” is probably my most common word right now! I’m constantly on the go with all of the bridal preparations. I’m so happy to be doing great on my meds, we’ve finally found the right “cocktail” as some would say. I feel like I have everything under control, I can manage the stress well, and most importantly I wake up in a good mood! Oh, and the other good factor is that the new med (Seroquel XR) is not making me gain weight… thank goodness, I have a dress to fit into! When the stress builds, and it does, I don’t lose my mind like I do un-medicated. There are no crying spells because I can’t find a parking spot, I’m not agitated at the many people I have to talk too, and I have patience. We all know how all of those crazy emotions fly right out of us when we’re manic depressed or even manic, and I guess you could  even say this happens when you think you feel “normal” and believe me… normal is not part of my vocabulary! For now I’m in control & enjoying every moment (except when people piss me off for a moment, and that has happened). Although I’m a little crazy (or a lot) I can still manage to go to work, work on schoolwork, work on a website, and plan a wedding… this is a huge accomplishment! Perhaps I should go shoe shopping as a type of reward for good behavior ;p – XOXO CrazyInHeels

Remaining happy and positive about my upcoming events, busy but happy! Unfortunately I’m not feeling manic but I’m still able to have enough energy to get done what I need to get done. Weddings can get so “political” when you least expect it, I never thought I would feel that way… what’s a gril to do?? They say it’s “your special day”, whatever you want to do, you do… but that’s not always the case! I’m glad I’m medicated and smart enough to know when to slow down and when to say no. Surviving in this world on a day to day basis can be quite challenging, even more so when you’re blonde… oh…and crazy, OMG! Sometimes I want to scream at the top of my lungs and wave my white high heels in the air (yes, I most ceartinly have a pair).  I’m glad I’m at a stable point with my mood and my meds because if I was working full time, going to school, and planning a wedding I would lose my mind for sure, probably come to work with two different heels on ;p – XOXO CrazyInHeels

So how do you deal with the people in your life that drive you absolutely crazy (like I already need more crazy!). My mom said it best when she told me I have to “detach” myself, PS… easier said then done! I like to surround myself with happy, positive, and motivated people: it’s good for the soul! Seeing that I’m ohhh… soooo crazy I’m must keep people in my life, at arm’s length, that are somewhat “normal” (is anyone really normal though??). Sometimes I wish I could just scoot someone right into the doctors office for meds, they clearly have no idea they have a problem. I guess I’ll continue to “detach” as my mother puts it, and see what happens (wish me luck)! - XOXO CrazyInHeels

“Every day do something that will inch you closer to a better tomorrow.” – Doug Firebaugh

“Go confidently in the direction of your dreams. Live the life you imagined.” – Henry David Thoreau

I feel a sense of accomplishment in life right now. My meds are working great, my thoughts are clear, and my mood is happy. I’m not sure about you guys but I find that during the spring and summer months I’m able to wake up early ready to go, not manic… just easier to get out of bed?!  I’m frantically running around with work, school, the website… oh and planning a wedding, OMG to say the least! Now that I have a clear mind, I’m able to decide what I want to do with my life. The possibilities are endless, my goals ARE attainable. There are two main discoveries I’ve had in the last year that have dramatically changed my life… I’m smart, and oh yeah… I’m smart!!! Call me crazy (no pun intended) but this is something that most people discover early on in life, not me :p I had several things working against me: 1) undiagnosed ADHD 2) Bipolar 3) You guessed it… I’m blonde… how are you supposed to conquer that hurdle???! What can you wake up and see what you’re not in a “crazy” haze, I’m sure you will amaze yourself if you take a deep look! - XOXO CrazyInHeels

“I’m the type of girl who will burst out laughing in dead silence because of something that happened yesterday!”- I heard this and had to post it because it’s 100% completely me! Is this because I’m crazy or just me being me?! Who knows, and most importantly, who in the world cares! The way I see it is, if I’m laughing that must mean I’m in a good mood and meds are working so I win either way!!!! – XOXO CrazyInHeels

Medications can become very costly so if you need assistance you can check out the following websites for guidance:

www.pparx.org

www.mentalhealthamerica.net/go/help/how-to-pay-for-treatment/prescription-assistance-programs

I’ve successfully made it through an entire week of work without losing my mind, so to speak! This was the first full week of work I’ve had in a while, the last two months had been horrible. I love it when I find the right “cocktail” of meds, not an easy task! Nothing like a crazy blond girl running around in her heels crying for no reason, those days are gone for now! Unless I see a really sappy commercial or read a great Hallmark card, yes… I’m that girl! My days are back to being full of fun, friends, laughing, and most importantly… shopping! Don’t worry I’m not “Manic” shopping, I’m reasonably shopping ;p if there is such a thing. Not sure what I’m doing tonight but I know it will at least involve a glass of wine and relaxing. - XOXO CrazyInHeels