Posts Tagged ‘Medication’

If you read the list of possible side effects from a medication that you are about to take, you probably wouldn’t take it. Are all the side effects worth the hopefully positive effect the pill will have on you? My body is still trying to get used to me new med Tegretol. In the 28 yrs that I’ve been alive I have NEVER had any side effects from any medication until now. I’m just trying to make it threw the day without throwing up, falling over being I”m so dizzy, and funtioning with a full hlown headache. I’m hoping tomorrow is better. – XOXO CrazyInHeels

I feel like grabbing a martini after work to let lose. Sometimes a couple of drinks does help after a long day, not too many though! My thoughts are slow and my energy is low. I saw the doctor today and we increased my Tegretol. I’m hoping to see better results in a few days. I asked the doctor if my energy and interest in things that I once loved would return because at this point I’m hopeless. It’s crazy how your mood can just diminish within a few days. I have a loss of interest, lack of energy, and sadness that doesn’t go away. I started crying at work yesterday for no reason. Thank god I work at a small office with women who are more than understanding. I’m trying to pull it together as best I can but it’s so very hard. I can’t just make these feelings go away, oh… how I wish I could. Keep your fingers crossed for the new meds. – XOXO CrazyInHeels

It’s hard to get through the days when I’m not in a heightened state of mind. I’m slowly reaching a “normal” state of mind but I feel like it’s a slightly depressed mood because I wish I was hypomania. I feel like I still have a lack of energy and interest. I’m definitely not lying in bed crying anymore and for that I’m thankful but I wish I still had all that energy and drive. Maybe I haven’t reached the full potential of happiness while being normal. I’m just two weeks into my new meds so I’ll hold out hope. Just load me up with more drugs until I’m happy. I’m ready to kick up my heels and get back to life. – XOXO CrazyInHeels

Today I suffered from even more lovely side effects. I was extremely dizzy, had a headache, and was sick to my stomach all day. Popping pills and feeling like hell. I’m hanging on to to the fact that the meds will kick in soon and the side effects will fade. My happiness is within reach, I just need to hold on for a few more days. – XOXO CrazyInHeels 

Why can’t I just take a medicine that works but without the side effects. The Risperdal that I’m on until the Tegretol starts working is making me eat EVERYTHING that I see, and I’m not craving the healthy stuff. Right now I want to eat pizza, cookies, donuts, chocolate, candy, bread, chips… basically everything that makes me gain weight! I’ve gained four pounds in the last two weeks… OMG!!! Why does there have to be side effects?! I sometimes actually have a thought in my brain… “Would I rather be skinny and crazy or normal and gain 20lbs?” What’s a girl to do? I know my sanity is crucial but I also have to fit into those skinny jeans I bought last week! – XOXO CrazyInHeels

Thank God I’m feeling better than yesterday! I thought I was going to lose my mind yesterday. I was so anxious and sad. I would periodically start crying for absolutely no reason. I felt totally out of it and definitely not myself. I was consumed with sadness, I was stuck in my own hell of crazy thoughts. There was nothing I could do to snap out of it! I took some medicine that my doc had prescribed in case of this very situation. I was hesitant to take it because I knew it would make me tired but I had enough sense to let that go. I was afraid I was going to just lose it… have a psychotic break and end up in the ER from a mental breakdown. I took the meds and sure enough I was feeling much better within a couple of hours, crazy how that works. I could tell the minute I woke up that the meds were working their magic. I didn’t hate the world and want to stay in bed all day. I have more energy and am happy to face the day today. I hope this feeling lasts for a while. – XOXO CrazyInHeels

I’ve lived my life with meds and without meds, which do I prefer you ask… WITH MEDS!!! I can’t even begin to tell you how much more manageable my life is now medicated. Being “crazy” is like having a black cloud in your brain that paralyzes your rational thought process, pours sadness throughout every bone in your body, and fills your mind with anger and frustration.

Yes, we are fu*&$%* “CRAZY” but we should embrace this craziness and learn how to turn this negative into a positive. I know that sometimes our lives can be extremely difficult and complicated but you’ve got to find something that makes you happy. Now, I’m not saying that you should just snap out of it and get happy damnit!!! I know that this is simply not possible, but I am saying that when you are happy… talk about it, write about it… the good emotions. Journaling is such a good idea. I like to look back and read about all the good moods I was in when I’m having a bad day, it helps! You can get out all those dark feelings, that’s good, but you need to find a way to bring yourself back to the “good” side. You have to remember to share all the fun, happy, positive things in your life with yourself so you have something to hang onto when you’re in the dark. Doing so will help you remember the good things. – XOXO CrazyInHeels