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Happy Friday

Nicole — Sat, 29 May 2010 00:02:10 +0000

Fridays are always fabulous, especially when they lead to a three day weekend! I’m staying focused on the positive and continuously doing things that make me happy and healthy. I truly believe that your mind is much more powerful than you can ever imagine: if you want something bad enough, it will happen! I know what my goals are, I have daily affirmations, and I have purpose… this all leads to happiness. Do you know what you’re doing here, what’s your purpose? Have you thought about it lately? If you haven’t you better start, I promise it will make a world of difference. I’m bipolar (I mean crazy) and I love life, there’s not one single person in this world that would make me feel any different about me, I am who I am… and that’s motivated, driven, intelligent, honest, and most importantly… happy!!! (no one can take that away from me!!!) – XOXO CrazyInHeels

Confident & Comfortable With Me

Nicole — Mon, 24 May 2010 18:08:25 +0000

OMG, I’ve been soooo busy it’s hard to get everything done! I was in Las Vegas this last weekend for a wedding. I had a ton of fun and discovered something new about myself, I can have fun with out getting drunk! When you’re on a lot of medication you need to be very careful in regards to alcohol. There are some medications, Tegretol is one of them, that you shouldn’t drink while taking, period! Then there are some you can have a drink with but you must remember that the side effects will intensify with alcohol, if you’re not sure about your medication please contact your doctor or pharmacy. I’m not going to lie I had a couple of drinks (when I say a couple I mean a couple) but nothing out of control. I’ve learned to be confident and comfortable with the CrazyInHeels gal that I am and I have the most fun when I’m myself! When you drink too much you can feel depressed, tired, and sick (just to name a few). Who wants to feel like that?! I’m in a good place right now and I want to stay that way! – XOXO CrazyInHeels

Crazy Normal, I suppose…hmmmm

Nicole — Sat, 08 May 2010 00:02:32 +0000

I’ve successfully made it through an entire week of work without losing my mind, so to speak! This was the first full week of work I’ve had in a while, the last two months had been horrible. I love it when I find the right “cocktail” of meds, not an easy task! Nothing like a crazy blond girl running around in her heels crying for no reason, those days are gone for now! Unless I see a really sappy commercial or read a great Hallmark card, yes… I’m that girl! My days are back to being full of fun, friends, laughing, and most importantly… shopping! Don’t worry I’m not “Manic” shopping, I’m reasonably shopping ;p if there is such a thing. Not sure what I’m doing tonight but I know it will at least involve a glass of wine and relaxing. - XOXO CrazyInHeels

On With Life

Nicole — Wed, 14 Apr 2010 23:57:01 +0000

Busy with life! Working and going back to school definitely makes me a busy “crazy” girl! I’m still trying to get back to feeling somewhat normal, finding the right concoction of medication. I think we’re close, it just gets frustrating as we sit back to see if this that and the other works. I’m excited to get on with life, be happy! I feel like I do so many other things (yoga, motivational cd’s, journaling, eating healthy) to keep my mind and body happy that it’s about time my emotions caught up. Sometimes you can only do so much, you have to remember there is a chemical imbalance you must correct before everything else can follow. – XOXO CrazyInHeels

Cheerful Moments

Nicole — Mon, 22 Mar 2010 17:32:09 +0000

I can’t believe how much one little pill can affect my life. I finally feel like I’m happy. Not a fake happy, a real happy that comes from within. I’m finally at peace with losing my Grandma. I miss her dearly but have allowed myself to walk through the grieving process. When I take a moment to remember and let myself cry if I need too, I feel better. My new med is helping me regulate my emotions. I wake up in a good mood and stay in a good mood. Life will bring happy days, sad days, disappointing moments and cheerful moments but I feel like I’m fully capable of dealing with whatever comes my way. – XOXO CrazyInHeels

Manic

Nicole — Wed, 03 Mar 2010 05:19:58 +0000

I’m happy to be medicated! Is it possible to still feel a little manic when you’re on two mood stabilizers? I have no problem with this, who doesn’t like the manic high, but I don’t want the lows of depression when it subsides?!!!!! Definitely a great question for the doctor tomorrow… -XOXO CrazyInHeels

Understanding My Limits But Still Having Fun

Nicole — Tue, 02 Mar 2010 23:51:54 +0000

Busy running around. I’ve got to remember what my limits are. When to keep going, when to slow down, and when to say “NO”! I’m too crazy to be running around 24hrs a day 7days a week, I’ll lose my mind… not pretty! I’m having a good time with all of the excitment going on around me. Emotionally I’m feeling better than I have in a long time. I’m glad that I get to share in every one else’s happiness instead of lying in bed surrounded by dark sadness. I remind myself everyday of my accomplishments and strive for bigger and better goals. I’m the only one in charge of “My Story” and I can’t write a good one unless I get off my butt and do something. I of course will need the continued help of medication and my weekly psychologist visits! I’m doing everything I can to keep myself “normal”… and having a GREAT time now!!! – XOXO CrazyInHeels

Getting Through The Side Effects

Nicole — Mon, 16 Nov 2009 00:25:56 +0000

If you read the list of possible side effects from a medication that you are about to take, you probably wouldn’t take it. Are all the side effects worth the hopefully positive effect the pill will have on you? My body is still trying to get used to me new med Tegretol. In the 28 yrs that I’ve been alive I have NEVER had any side effects from any medication until now. I’m just trying to make it threw the day without throwing up, falling over being I”m so dizzy, and funtioning with a full hlown headache. I’m hoping tomorrow is better. – XOXO CrazyInHeels

Hanging On For Happy Days

Nicole — Fri, 13 Nov 2009 05:17:12 +0000

I feel like grabbing a martini after work to let lose. Sometimes a couple of drinks does help after a long day, not too many though! My thoughts are slow and my energy is low. I saw the doctor today and we increased my Tegretol. I’m hoping to see better results in a few days. I asked the doctor if my energy and interest in things that I once loved would return because at this point I’m hopeless. It’s crazy how your mood can just diminish within a few days. I have a loss of interest, lack of energy, and sadness that doesn’t go away. I started crying at work yesterday for no reason. Thank god I work at a small office with women who are more than understanding. I’m trying to pull it together as best I can but it’s so very hard. I can’t just make these feelings go away, oh… how I wish I could. Keep your fingers crossed for the new meds. – XOXO CrazyInHeels

Load Up The Meds

Nicole — Tue, 10 Nov 2009 05:40:08 +0000

It’s hard to get through the days when I’m not in a heightened state of mind. I’m slowly reaching a “normal” state of mind but I feel like it’s a slightly depressed mood because I wish I was hypomania. I feel like I still have a lack of energy and interest. I’m definitely not lying in bed crying anymore and for that I’m thankful but I wish I still had all that energy and drive. Maybe I haven’t reached the full potential of happiness while being normal. I’m just two weeks into my new meds so I’ll hold out hope. Just load me up with more drugs until I’m happy. I’m ready to kick up my heels and get back to life. – XOXO CrazyInHeels