Posts Tagged ‘Medication’

I’m happy to be medicated! Is it possible to still feel a little manic when you’re on two mood stabilizers? I have no problem with this, who doesn’t like the manic high, but I don’t want the lows of depression when it subsides?!!!!! Definitely a great question for the doctor tomorrow… -XOXO CrazyInHeels

Busy running around. I’ve got to remember what my limits are. When to keep going, when to slow down, and when to say “NO”! I’m too crazy to be running around 24hrs a day 7days a week, I’ll lose my mind… not pretty! I’m having a good time with all of the excitment going on around me. Emotionally I’m feeling better than I have in a long time. I’m glad that I get to share in every one else’s happiness instead of lying in bed surrounded by dark sadness. I remind myself everyday of my accomplishments and strive for bigger and better goals. I’m the only one in charge of “My Story” and I can’t write a good one unless I get off my butt and do something. I of course will need the continued help of medication and my weekly psychologist visits! I’m doing everything I can to keep myself “normal”… and having a GREAT time now!!! – XOXO CrazyInHeels

If you read the list of possible side effects from a medication that you are about to take, you probably wouldn’t take it. Are all the side effects worth the hopefully positive effect the pill will have on you? My body is still trying to get used to me new med Tegretol. In the 28 yrs that I’ve been alive I have NEVER had any side effects from any medication until now. I’m just trying to make it threw the day without throwing up, falling over being I”m so dizzy, and funtioning with a full hlown headache. I’m hoping tomorrow is better. – XOXO CrazyInHeels

I feel like grabbing a martini after work to let lose. Sometimes a couple of drinks does help after a long day, not too many though! My thoughts are slow and my energy is low. I saw the doctor today and we increased my Tegretol. I’m hoping to see better results in a few days. I asked the doctor if my energy and interest in things that I once loved would return because at this point I’m hopeless. It’s crazy how your mood can just diminish within a few days. I have a loss of interest, lack of energy, and sadness that doesn’t go away. I started crying at work yesterday for no reason. Thank god I work at a small office with women who are more than understanding. I’m trying to pull it together as best I can but it’s so very hard. I can’t just make these feelings go away, oh… how I wish I could. Keep your fingers crossed for the new meds. – XOXO CrazyInHeels

It’s hard to get through the days when I’m not in a heightened state of mind. I’m slowly reaching a “normal” state of mind but I feel like it’s a slightly depressed mood because I wish I was hypomania. I feel like I still have a lack of energy and interest. I’m definitely not lying in bed crying anymore and for that I’m thankful but I wish I still had all that energy and drive. Maybe I haven’t reached the full potential of happiness while being normal. I’m just two weeks into my new meds so I’ll hold out hope. Just load me up with more drugs until I’m happy. I’m ready to kick up my heels and get back to life. – XOXO CrazyInHeels

Today I suffered from even more lovely side effects. I was extremely dizzy, had a headache, and was sick to my stomach all day. Popping pills and feeling like hell. I’m hanging on to to the fact that the meds will kick in soon and the side effects will fade. My happiness is within reach, I just need to hold on for a few more days. – XOXO CrazyInHeels 

Why can’t I just take a medicine that works but without the side effects. The Risperdal that I’m on until the Tegretol starts working is making me eat EVERYTHING that I see, and I’m not craving the healthy stuff. Right now I want to eat pizza, cookies, donuts, chocolate, candy, bread, chips… basically everything that makes me gain weight! I’ve gained four pounds in the last two weeks… OMG!!! Why does there have to be side effects?! I sometimes actually have a thought in my brain… “Would I rather be skinny and crazy or normal and gain 20lbs?” What’s a girl to do? I know my sanity is crucial but I also have to fit into those skinny jeans I bought last week! – XOXO CrazyInHeels