Posts Tagged ‘Manic’

As if my life couldn’t get any crazier… I just found out the class I’m in for the next 7 weeks has two papers and a quiz due every week, OMG… my wedding is in 8 weeks. As I thought about my predicament, which is: 1) Crazy busy with work, I’m really trying to learn and grow more within my current job 2) Crazy busy with schoolwork, my nights disappear into books, papers, and research 3) My “spare” time which is far and few between is spent working on my wedding!!! Some would say “That’s too much to do, you’re crazy (yes, I am), where does all my time go, but then I had a new thought, I can think of this in a positive manner… 1) Job security 2) I’m obtaining an education that is priceless but also extremely empowering 3) I’m marrying an incredible man whom I love dearly! So, with my new found thought process I easily move from one task to the next. I feel like I’m happy, I have energy, and I’m accomplishing a lot but I also notice a slight weight loss, constant thoughts flying around in my head, last night I couldn’t fall asleep… am I slowly working my way into a manic state?! I wouldn’t mind the extra energy (who wouldn’t!) but I don’t want to crash!!! For now, I realize what might or might not be happening, being aware is what will help me deal with the “situation” at hand. I’ll be running around, crazy as ever… in heels none the less :) – CrazyInHeels

I think that “busy” is probably my most common word right now! I’m constantly on the go with all of the bridal preparations. I’m so happy to be doing great on my meds, we’ve finally found the right “cocktail” as some would say. I feel like I have everything under control, I can manage the stress well, and most importantly I wake up in a good mood! Oh, and the other good factor is that the new med (Seroquel XR) is not making me gain weight… thank goodness, I have a dress to fit into! When the stress builds, and it does, I don’t lose my mind like I do un-medicated. There are no crying spells because I can’t find a parking spot, I’m not agitated at the many people I have to talk too, and I have patience. We all know how all of those crazy emotions fly right out of us when we’re manic depressed or even manic, and I guess you could  even say this happens when you think you feel “normal” and believe me… normal is not part of my vocabulary! For now I’m in control & enjoying every moment (except when people piss me off for a moment, and that has happened). Although I’m a little crazy (or a lot) I can still manage to go to work, work on schoolwork, work on a website, and plan a wedding… this is a huge accomplishment! Perhaps I should go shoe shopping as a type of reward for good behavior ;p – XOXO CrazyInHeels

OMG, we just signed a contract to get married in less than three months, hence the hiatus for a week! How in the world is a “crazy” girl who has a full time job, going back to school, and working on a website supposed to get all of this done?! I think I should start a new blog that tracks my progress as the weeks fly by. So… I have one wish.. to be manic during the process ;p seriously I could use the extra energy right about now. Secondly, I hope all of this doesn’t trigger some manic depression, with all the added stress. I don’t necessarily see it as stress, this is such an exciting time, but… things are soooo busy for me (to say the least)!!! Wish me luck! – XOXO CrazyInHeels

“Go confidently in the direction of your dreams. Live the life you imagined.” – Henry David Thoreau

I feel a sense of accomplishment in life right now. My meds are working great, my thoughts are clear, and my mood is happy. I’m not sure about you guys but I find that during the spring and summer months I’m able to wake up early ready to go, not manic… just easier to get out of bed?!  I’m frantically running around with work, school, the website… oh and planning a wedding, OMG to say the least! Now that I have a clear mind, I’m able to decide what I want to do with my life. The possibilities are endless, my goals ARE attainable. There are two main discoveries I’ve had in the last year that have dramatically changed my life… I’m smart, and oh yeah… I’m smart!!! Call me crazy (no pun intended) but this is something that most people discover early on in life, not me :p I had several things working against me: 1) undiagnosed ADHD 2) Bipolar 3) You guessed it… I’m blonde… how are you supposed to conquer that hurdle???! What can you wake up and see what you’re not in a “crazy” haze, I’m sure you will amaze yourself if you take a deep look! - XOXO CrazyInHeels

What a great day to go to happy hour and have a margarita! That’s what I need after yesterday, a drink! I had to spend $500 on my car when all I went to get was an oil change, OMG! I’m just glad that I at least had the money to pay for it, like it or not! That’s the way you have to look at “life” sometimes. Meds are still working great and I’m busy running around doing this, that, and the other. I stopped at the mall to get a gift for someone and it took all I had not to wand over to look at the heels, the dresses, the jeans… and whatever else I could possibly buy that I would love to add to my already overextended wardrobe (as if that’s possible :p ) As I left the mall I was happy that my “Manic Shopping Girl” didn’t come out as I wandered through all the lovely’s, haha!!! – XOXO CrazyInHeels

I’m happy to be medicated! Is it possible to still feel a little manic when you’re on two mood stabilizers? I have no problem with this, who doesn’t like the manic high, but I don’t want the lows of depression when it subsides?!!!!! Definitely a great question for the doctor tomorrow… -XOXO CrazyInHeels

• It is estimated that about 1 per cent of the population suffer from bipolar affective disorder at some point in their lives. Some people will experience just one or two episodes, whereas others will have many episodes of depression or mania. It occurs in both sexes and often first appears in the age group 18 -24 (stats from Royal College of Psychiatrists) http://www.netdoctor.co.uk/diseases/facts/manicdepressivepsychosis.htm
• For those who come from families with a history of the disease, the likelihood that future generations will be diagnosed with the disease increase by more than half. Researchers have been seeking a genetic link to the prevalence of the disease in families, and some progress has been made in studies of gene and myelin development within the central nervous system. Other studies have shown that over one half of patients diagnosed with a bipolar disorder have a history of past substance abuse, especially the use of cocaine. http://ezinearticles.com/?More-Interesting-Facts-About-Bipolar&id=559372
• According to the most recent edition of the Diagnostic and Statistical Manual of Mental Disorders, the age of onset for bipolar disorder is 18 with the median onset age being 25. However, the medical community is now reconsidering this as more and more incidents of childhood and infant onset are diagnosed.
• Both men and women experience equal incidence of bipolar disorder, however, women tend to experience rapid cycling bipolar disorder more often while men tend most commonly to experience traditional bipolar disorder.
• Bipolar disorder affects approximately 5.7 million American adults, or about 2.6 percent of the U.S. population age 18 and older in a given year.
• The origins of bipolar disorder are not fully understood. Most agree that a variety of chemical, genetic, and environmental issues combine to trigger the disorder. Bipolar disorder also often coexists with substance abuse, although it isn’t clear whether the link is genetic or not www.associatedcontent.com
• Bipolar disorder is more common than most people know – it is estimated that one percent of the adult population suffers from bipolar disorder. This means that out of every 100 people you know, one has bipolar disorder. www.associatedcontent.com
• Bipolar disorder is not a phase. You (or your loved one) will not snap out of it. Natural or homeopathic treatments will not cure bipolar disorder. If you suspect that you have bipolar disorder, it is imperative that you see a doctor as soon as possible. Bipolar disorder is not curable, but proper treatment can make the difference between an unbearable existence and leading an active, productive life. www.associatedcontent.com
• More than two-thirds of people with bipolar disorder have at least one close relative with the illness or with unipolar major depression, indicating that the disease has a heritable component. (National Institute of Mental Health)
• Bipolar disorder is the sixth leading cause of disability in the world. (World Health Organization)
• Consumers with bipolar disorder face up to ten years of coping with symptoms before getting an accurate diagnosis, with only one in four receiving an accurate diagnosis in less than three years. (DBSA, 2000)
• Nearly 9 out of 10 consumers with bipolar disorder are satisfied with their current medication(s), although side effects remain a problem. (DBSA, 1999)
• Consumers who report high levels of satisfaction with their treatment and treatment provider have a much more positive outlook about their illness and their ability to cope with it. (DBSA, 1999)
• Manic depression is likely to run in families and, in some cases, is believed to be hereditary. Researchers are still undergoing intense research to identify a gene that may be responsible for this disorder. http://medicalcenter.osu.edu/patientcare/healthcare_services/mental_health/mental_health_about/mood/bipolar_disorder/Pages/index.aspx