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Nicole — Tue, 02 Mar 2010 23:58:20 +0000

“The more anger towards the past you carry in your heart, the less capable you are of loving in the present.”

Mending Relationships

Nicole — Fri, 04 Dec 2009 05:28:03 +0000

I’m trying to bring my relationship with my fiance back to normal. When I slip into my crazy world of depression for a few months it definately takes a toll on our relationship. It’s hard for someone who isn’t sad to be around someone who is for a few months. If you really think about it who in their right mind would want to come home to that every day?! Not only can it bring that person down but frustrate them and make them feel pressured to get us back to normal only to be let down when they don’t. After a few weeks into the depression your relationship takes on a new routine. This routine probably isn’t the healthiest it should be. You become stuck in your routine and as you begin to feel better it’s almost as if you have to direct all of you energy and focus on getting your relationship back to a good spot, you have to fall in love again. It’s easy to do if your with the right person. I know it’ll take a little time but I’m already starting to feel we’re on the right track again. The happier I become the happier our relationship becomes. I’m happy today because I’m with someone that I love with all of my heart and so does he, we are determined to get through this… together!!! – XOXO CrazyInHeels

Feeling The Love

Nicole — Mon, 09 Nov 2009 06:03:52 +0000

I’m quite proud of myself for not losing it this weekend. I threw a big surprise Birthday bash for my fiancé in the midst of a mental breakdown and I pulled it off. To see all the people that came to surprise him showed me just how lucky I am to be with someone that has touched so many different lives. It’s nice to be surrounded by good people that love us. These people have seen us grow into the couple that we are today, crazy and all. They’ve seen us go through ups and downs (my ups and downs) and they still love us, they love Brian, and they love me. It makes me so happy to know that people admire and respect that I’ve put my crazy life out there. I was having a rough couple of weeks but last night seemed to wash away all those sad moment, all of the tears. I feel blessed and loved. I’m on a road that leads to happiness. I can be happy and crazy at the same time. – XOXO CrazyInHeels

Happy & crazy… back to me

Nicole — Fri, 06 Nov 2009 04:45:06 +0000

I am so very excited to report that I’m feeling like myself again. I have climbed my way out of the deep black hole of depression that was closing in around me. I actually turned the radio up in the car and bounced around with the windows down this morning. That’s how I know I’m in a good mood, I listen to music on the way to work. I didn’t feel like I was stuck in the same routine of absolute hopelessness that I have been so graciously blessed with the last month or so. I thought for sure I was going to wake up in a bad mood for the rest of my life, not even a brand new pair of heels would cheer my up :p I’m back to living, loving, feeling, and laughing. I am my CrazyInHeels self. – XOXO CrayInHeels