Posts Tagged ‘irrational’

I joked with my fiance that I should have a section that is dedicated to the thoughts and progress reports from my fiance. My perception of our life can sometimes be completely different than his. Somedays when we have conversations I beleive that I’m completely raional and understanding when I’m in fact irrational and emotional. As the years pass in our relationship and my emotions have cycled we’ve come to better understand how to deal with these crazy times but no matter what you do things will not alwasy run smoothly. There will be times when you want to give up, walk away, slap some sense into the other person, etc you get what I’m saying, life is hard living with a crazy girl. Hang in during the tough times because I promise… they will pass. Let the love that brought you together keep you together. – XOXO CrazyInHeels

I got to see my doctor today… thank God!!!! I feel better just by going there. I have no problem admitting that I’m crazy and need drugs asap! She put me on a new drug Tegretol. So I’ll be on Lamictal and Tegretol. Hopefully this starts to make me feel better. I haven’t cried and screamed as much as yesterday. I got a little combative with my fiance yesterday, I was a little irrational. I can say that now, poor guy! It takes a lot to deal with us “crazy” people (I mean that in the nicest way possible). I’m trying to take care of myself and do things that aren’t stressful and take a lot of energy. I’m going to get through this, it will pass. – XOXO CrazyInHeels

Today is better than yesterday. The anxiety has taken a vacation for now… thank god! I’m noticing that my patience lever is non existent though. If it’s not one thing it’s something else.  I’ve dealt with enough stimulation for today and my brain is on overload. When I’m super busy and am being pulled in five different directions I feel like I’m on the verge of insanity. The agitation and frustration rise. I love being busy but for some reason my body doesn’t.  I’m still tying to figure out why my body reacts one way when my thoughts are totally different… oh yea I’m “crazy”. It’s times like this that I have to remember that the feelings will pass. I just need to pay extra attention to how I’m feeling and take care of myself. I’m not any less of a person if I don’t work late, if I need time alone,  or if I need to vent. Find out what works for you and make sure you do it. I personally will probably drive home w/the windows down singing at the topic of my lungs and then hang with myself for a bit when I get home. This gives my emotions, thoughts, brain, and body time to regroup. - XOXO CrazyInHeels