Posts Tagged ‘insanity’

I have so much going on right now. Christmas cards, christmas shopping, moving, and my friend is getting married this weekend. This is enough to take me back to crazy world. I’ve definately tested my limits today. I have n’t cried (except when I read over my maid of honor speech) but I’ve come close. I can feel that tension that rises in my body that makes me feel like I’m on the verge of insanity. My patience was wearing thin at the end of the day and I was easily frustrated. It’s almost midnight and I’m still going. I’m going to have to take it easy tomorrow. I’ll relax more and stay away from any busy shopping areas, they are too frustrating after a while! If I push myself too much I’ll put myself into a bad mood that I won’t be able to shake for a couple of days, no bueno. I’m thankful to have meds and feel as happy as I do for now, things are good, hectic but good!!! -XOXO CrazyInHeels

Today is better than yesterday. The anxiety has taken a vacation for now… thank god! I’m noticing that my patience lever is non existent though. If it’s not one thing it’s something else.  I’ve dealt with enough stimulation for today and my brain is on overload. When I’m super busy and am being pulled in five different directions I feel like I’m on the verge of insanity. The agitation and frustration rise. I love being busy but for some reason my body doesn’t.  I’m still tying to figure out why my body reacts one way when my thoughts are totally different… oh yea I’m “crazy”. It’s times like this that I have to remember that the feelings will pass. I just need to pay extra attention to how I’m feeling and take care of myself. I’m not any less of a person if I don’t work late, if I need time alone,  or if I need to vent. Find out what works for you and make sure you do it. I personally will probably drive home w/the windows down singing at the topic of my lungs and then hang with myself for a bit when I get home. This gives my emotions, thoughts, brain, and body time to regroup. - XOXO CrazyInHeels