Posts Tagged ‘Happy’

As I sit back and think about my weekend and the coming days ahead, I can’t help but smile and be thankful for all of the positive changes and supportive friends in my life, my sense of ‘personal power’ and confidence. I was surrounded by all of my girlies this weekend, as we celebrated my wedding with the Bridal Shower. I couldn’t ask for a better group of girls!!! Some people walk into your life… only to walk out soon after, some people walk in to your life and stay a while… and they walk out, some people walk into your life and pull up a chair and a glass of wine… and stay a while! The one’s that love and care about your feelings and happiness are the ones you want to be around! For now, although my life is crazy busy (no pun intended, yes maam… I’m still crazy and even more crazy for running around all day in heels) I’m constantly thinking about my new job (which I absolutely love!), the wedding, school, and yes… the new job, the wedding, and school again… a constant rush of ideas from one to the next… at all times. I’m happy and excited as I think about what tomorrow will bring… I already know it’ll be better than the last as I know, without a doubt, that I made the best decision possible for my life (and sanity)! It’s so refreshing to be in a ‘functional’ environment; happy, young, motivated money makers surround me… and they’re nice, encouraging, and respectful… who’da thought you could have all of that at work?! Love it!! – XOXO CrazyInHeels

So excited to start a new “adventure” tomorrow! My life is headed in an unknown direction, but I have a feeling it’s going to include; happiness, respect, success, and enjoyment!

If you feel stuck, get un-stuck! If you feel un-happy, get happy! If you stay on the same old boring path of your “so called life” ~ you aren’t going to get far! It’s sad really, watching people “bury” themselves in their “so called happiness”! For now… I’ll focus on me, my happiness… and I couldn’t be happier!!! Ta Ta for now ~ XOXO CrazyInHeels

The last two days have been absolutely fabulous!!! I feel like I’ve grown sooooo much over the last year, and even more so over the last six months! I finally understand the power that comes along with confidence, true confidence that allows you to keep your head up and demand the respect you deserve from those around you. Please keep in mind, this isn’t an arrogant confidence, rather a peaceful and respectful confidence. As we move through life (in heels of course) we will encounter negative and positive experiences. It’s what you do with these experiences that count the most. I’m now strong and confident enough to face confrontation smack dab in the face… without fear! I can stand tall in my red stilettos, remain calm, and politely excuse negative people and situations out of my life. When you learn to own your own power in a respectful manner and stick up for yourself, the people around you that are negative will be left with their tail between their legs, knowing full well that they’ve “messed up” Girl, you control your life and everything in it, if you don’t like something… get out there and change it!

I can honestly say that I’m happy, confident, peaceful, and yes… blonde but also smart! I’m not sitting in the corner anymore, I’m dancing around in heels excited to begin a new journey! XOXO – CrazyInHeels

As much as I would love to be superwomen, running from one task to the other, it’s nearly impossible to get everything done that I want to get done. After my wedding I’ll be back in full force, providing insight into my crazy life! I’m trying to soak in all of the wedding excitement, enjoy the moment but, unfortunately… it’s been a challenge. I’ve been reminded that life isn’t always “peachy”! Sometimes things happen that just knock me right of my heels, I look up and wonder how some people can be so negative, selfish, and completely ignorant! What I must remember is that I CONTROL MY HAPPINESS, NO ONE ELSE! I’ve been telling myself that for years, but sometimes the “grandiosity” characteristic of manic (inflated feeling of superiority, wanting to fix someone who’s ill, but can’t) must gently subside so I can get back to my shopping, martinis, socializing, and for the love of my shiny red stiletto’s…. be happy! Seriously, these “mood busters” as I’ll kindly refer to them ( a few choice words do come to mind) oh, where was I, trying to forgive and forget the negative people that want so desperately to steal my happiness because they aren’t strong enough to find some of their own! I had a great weekend, and most importantly I’m marrying my handsome, none the less, best friend! – XOXO CrazyInHeels

As if my life couldn’t get any crazier… I just found out the class I’m in for the next 7 weeks has two papers and a quiz due every week, OMG… my wedding is in 8 weeks. As I thought about my predicament, which is: 1) Crazy busy with work, I’m really trying to learn and grow more within my current job 2) Crazy busy with schoolwork, my nights disappear into books, papers, and research 3) My “spare” time which is far and few between is spent working on my wedding!!! Some would say “That’s too much to do, you’re crazy (yes, I am), where does all my time go, but then I had a new thought, I can think of this in a positive manner… 1) Job security 2) I’m obtaining an education that is priceless but also extremely empowering 3) I’m marrying an incredible man whom I love dearly! So, with my new found thought process I easily move from one task to the next. I feel like I’m happy, I have energy, and I’m accomplishing a lot but I also notice a slight weight loss, constant thoughts flying around in my head, last night I couldn’t fall asleep… am I slowly working my way into a manic state?! I wouldn’t mind the extra energy (who wouldn’t!) but I don’t want to crash!!! For now, I realize what might or might not be happening, being aware is what will help me deal with the “situation” at hand. I’ll be running around, crazy as ever… in heels none the less :) – CrazyInHeels

I think that “busy” is probably my most common word right now! I’m constantly on the go with all of the bridal preparations. I’m so happy to be doing great on my meds, we’ve finally found the right “cocktail” as some would say. I feel like I have everything under control, I can manage the stress well, and most importantly I wake up in a good mood! Oh, and the other good factor is that the new med (Seroquel XR) is not making me gain weight… thank goodness, I have a dress to fit into! When the stress builds, and it does, I don’t lose my mind like I do un-medicated. There are no crying spells because I can’t find a parking spot, I’m not agitated at the many people I have to talk too, and I have patience. We all know how all of those crazy emotions fly right out of us when we’re manic depressed or even manic, and I guess you could  even say this happens when you think you feel “normal” and believe me… normal is not part of my vocabulary! For now I’m in control & enjoying every moment (except when people piss me off for a moment, and that has happened). Although I’m a little crazy (or a lot) I can still manage to go to work, work on schoolwork, work on a website, and plan a wedding… this is a huge accomplishment! Perhaps I should go shoe shopping as a type of reward for good behavior ;p – XOXO CrazyInHeels

Remaining happy and positive about my upcoming events, busy but happy! Unfortunately I’m not feeling manic but I’m still able to have enough energy to get done what I need to get done. Weddings can get so “political” when you least expect it, I never thought I would feel that way… what’s a gril to do?? They say it’s “your special day”, whatever you want to do, you do… but that’s not always the case! I’m glad I’m medicated and smart enough to know when to slow down and when to say no. Surviving in this world on a day to day basis can be quite challenging, even more so when you’re blonde… oh…and crazy, OMG! Sometimes I want to scream at the top of my lungs and wave my white high heels in the air (yes, I most ceartinly have a pair).  I’m glad I’m at a stable point with my mood and my meds because if I was working full time, going to school, and planning a wedding I would lose my mind for sure, probably come to work with two different heels on ;p – XOXO CrazyInHeels