Posts Tagged ‘Energy’

OMG, we just signed a contract to get married in less than three months, hence the hiatus for a week! How in the world is a “crazy” girl who has a full time job, going back to school, and working on a website supposed to get all of this done?! I think I should start a new blog that tracks my progress as the weeks fly by. So… I have one wish.. to be manic during the process ;p seriously I could use the extra energy right about now. Secondly, I hope all of this doesn’t trigger some manic depression, with all the added stress. I don’t necessarily see it as stress, this is such an exciting time, but… things are soooo busy for me (to say the least)!!! Wish me luck! – XOXO CrazyInHeels

Holy Bananas!!! I’m all over the place manic right now! My thoughts are flyin by a million miles a minute and I can’t even focus on one thing long enough to grab one down and focus on it. I’m super excited to be feeling this way! Finally I’m out of the depression, at least for  this exact moment, I can’t make any promises about what will happen in the next half an hour, it’s a roller coaster… what can I say?! This is why people call us “crazy”. I feel like I could run a 15k marathon and still have enough energy to go home, clean the house, make dinner, run another marathon, have the BEST sex of my life and then get right back out there for another marathon! I’m going, going, going but with nowhere to go. My mind is whizzing by. Even as I type I’m amazed at how my thoughts are altered for this moment. I’m euphoric, captivated by this new found happiness. The only downer… how long will the ride last and when it’s over willI crash?! Yikes!!! In the meantime I will remain optimistic and get as much done as I can possibly think while I have the energy. This is FABULOUS!!! – XOXO CrazyInHeels

It was a little hard to get out of bed this morning but I did it anyways. As the morning progress’ I’m happy to report that my mood is significantly better than yesterday. I have more energy than the last couple of weeks. I think it makes me feel better just to go see my doctor and then know that I’m starting a new med that will make me feel better. Almost a relief that the happiness will return soon. I’m returning to a “normal” state of mind (whatever that is) without the manic depression or, unfortunately, the hypo-mania. I’m easier to talk to but not overly talkative. I’m not confined to my bed because of depression. I’m not combative and angry. I’m not overreacting and irrational. I’m coming back to me.  -CrazyInHeels

My fiance noticed a difference already this morning. I’m sure he’s jumping for joy on the inside.

Unfortunately I’m back to my normal self (jk…somewhat). I have no signs of manic depression or any of the highs associated with mania L Don’t get me wrong I’m not sad to see the depression go… audios, hasta luego… don’t come back! But the mania … I will miss you dearly, I welcome you back anytime, the door is wide open! I’m trying to get back into the normal habits of life without all of the energy, confidence, and happiness. I’m sleeping in a little longer and crawling into bed just a little bit earlier. I find myself drifting back to caffeine and thank god I take adderall (a stimulant) because it gives me that little extra kick, not to mention brain power J Life is good and I’m trying to take it all in, in a normal state of mind. Do you think a normal state of mind is really a slightly depressed state of mind because we wish were mania? Every day I wake up in the hopes of being superwoman again but… I got nothin. I’m going to embrace my “normal” state of mind which is still “crazy” and move on. I’m different from others and I love it. This is who I am and if this is the worst health problem the “big guy” has blessed me with, them I’m gonna be ok.

 - XOXO CrazyInHeels