Posts Tagged ‘Energy’

It was a little hard to get out of bed this morning but I did it anyways. As the morning progress’ I’m happy to report that my mood is significantly better than yesterday. I have more energy than the last couple of weeks. I think it makes me feel better just to go see my doctor and then know that I’m starting a new med that will make me feel better. Almost a relief that the happiness will return soon. I’m returning to a “normal” state of mind (whatever that is) without the manic depression or, unfortunately, the hypo-mania. I’m easier to talk to but not overly talkative. I’m not confined to my bed because of depression. I’m not combative and angry. I’m not overreacting and irrational. I’m coming back to me.  -CrazyInHeels

My fiance noticed a difference already this morning. I’m sure he’s jumping for joy on the inside.

Unfortunately I’m back to my normal self (jk…somewhat). I have no signs of manic depression or any of the highs associated with mania L Don’t get me wrong I’m not sad to see the depression go… audios, hasta luego… don’t come back! But the mania … I will miss you dearly, I welcome you back anytime, the door is wide open! I’m trying to get back into the normal habits of life without all of the energy, confidence, and happiness. I’m sleeping in a little longer and crawling into bed just a little bit earlier. I find myself drifting back to caffeine and thank god I take adderall (a stimulant) because it gives me that little extra kick, not to mention brain power J Life is good and I’m trying to take it all in, in a normal state of mind. Do you think a normal state of mind is really a slightly depressed state of mind because we wish were mania? Every day I wake up in the hopes of being superwoman again but… I got nothin. I’m going to embrace my “normal” state of mind which is still “crazy” and move on. I’m different from others and I love it. This is who I am and if this is the worst health problem the “big guy” has blessed me with, them I’m gonna be ok.

 - XOXO CrazyInHeels