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Annoyance

Nicole — Tue, 15 Jun 2010 23:13:59 +0000

So how do you deal with the people in your life that drive you absolutely crazy (like I already need more crazy!). My mom said it best when she told me I have to “detach” myself, PS… easier said then done! I like to surround myself with happy, positive, and motivated people: it’s good for the soul! Seeing that I’m ohhh… soooo crazy I’m must keep people in my life, at arm’s length, that are somewhat “normal” (is anyone really normal though??). Sometimes I wish I could just scoot someone right into the doctors office for meds, they clearly have no idea they have a problem. I guess I’ll continue to “detach” as my mother puts it, and see what happens (wish me luck)! - XOXO CrazyInHeels

“Every day do something that will inch you closer to a better tomorrow.” – Doug Firebaugh

Confident & Comfortable With Me

Nicole — Mon, 24 May 2010 18:08:25 +0000

OMG, I’ve been soooo busy it’s hard to get everything done! I was in Las Vegas this last weekend for a wedding. I had a ton of fun and discovered something new about myself, I can have fun with out getting drunk! When you’re on a lot of medication you need to be very careful in regards to alcohol. There are some medications, Tegretol is one of them, that you shouldn’t drink while taking, period! Then there are some you can have a drink with but you must remember that the side effects will intensify with alcohol, if you’re not sure about your medication please contact your doctor or pharmacy. I’m not going to lie I had a couple of drinks (when I say a couple I mean a couple) but nothing out of control. I’ve learned to be confident and comfortable with the CrazyInHeels gal that I am and I have the most fun when I’m myself! When you drink too much you can feel depressed, tired, and sick (just to name a few). Who wants to feel like that?! I’m in a good place right now and I want to stay that way! – XOXO CrazyInHeels

Live Normal

Nicole — Tue, 11 May 2010 23:54:59 +0000

Still doing good, happy to report! I’m waking up in a good mood and staying in a good mood, this is so exciting! I don’t think you can truly appreciate the good days without experiencing the bad days. I believe that because I’m, oh… soooo… blessed with being crazy, I’m more in tune with my emotions and I experience life on a different level than others. Now, I know that can sound crazy in and of it self but those of you that are “crazy” get it and those of you that don’t.. too bad! haha I chose to see the positive side of this disease because that’s the only way I’m going to make it through this oh.. soooo.. crazy life! I don’t feel bad for myself, pity myself, blame, or make excuses for myself. Sure, I’m a little “crazy” but who isn’t?? I have just as much of right to be here experiencing life as the next person. Life is what you chose to make of it. If you think something is wrong, go to the doctor. I’m tellin ya… you can feel normal! Get of your bootie, dust off you heels and start living!!! – XOXO CrazyInHeels

Doc Appointment

Nicole — Thu, 08 Apr 2010 00:15:52 +0000

I’m on my way to the doctor, thank God! Hopefully she has a miracle drug that will pull me out of this “funk”! Perhaps it could be one that doesn’t have any side effects?!!!!! Please, someone, make that happen! – XOXO CrazyInHeels

I Surrender

Nicole — Wed, 10 Mar 2010 00:34:55 +0000

Still going crazy! I’m at the end of my rope, I’m going to see the doctor in half an hour… thank God! My anxiety and agitation are at an all new high. I feel like screaming, crying, yelling, kicking and running. I feel like all my emotions are wound up tight in my head and ready to burst, my head aches. It’s moments like this that make you want to kick up your heels and wave your white flag “I surrender, I surrender”. I know it will pass but WTF I hate this!!! Ok, I’m done complaining. I’m thinking positive, positive, positive thoughts; shopping, manicures, pedicures, massages, shopping, new pair of heels, more shopping… starting to smile This will pass, this will pass. TaTa for now. – XOXO CrazyInHeels

Anxiety about Anxiety

Nicole — Fri, 19 Feb 2010 03:14:59 +0000

I saw the doctor this morning and have been told that I have anxiety about a lot of different things but now I’m having anxiety about having anxiety!!! I had no idea that was possible?! After I listed off about eight different things that are major life events that are causing me stress and anxiety I looked right at the doctor and said “what do I do? I need to know exactly how to fix it!” He said “We’re going to work on Cognitive thinking”. I’m up for it but I definatley wanted to know the succcess rate. He laughed and I said “How successful is it with blonde’s?” which made him laugh. Cognitive thinking… hopefully the answer to my prayers. – XOXO CrazyInHeels

Tools For Sanity

Nicole — Thu, 04 Feb 2010 23:19:05 +0000

I’m back to seeing my psychologist. I decided that I’ve been through a lot in the last six months and I need to talk and walk through all of my feelings. A girl can only handle so much! The tension, anxiety, stress, and lump in my throat are going to make me age faster and that is not allowed!!! As I walked out of the office (in heels non the less) I felt some of my anxiety melt away. As I start to understand where it is coming from, I can now work on dealing with the underlying problem. Admitting you’re crazy is the first step, then you must do all you can to get the tools to help you live a normal life, it’s possible! – XOXO CrazyInHeels

Adjust Accordingly

Nicole — Thu, 12 Nov 2009 05:28:37 +0000

So I’m back to sad and crying today. I’m not going to spend time bitching about it because I know it will get better. My doctor said this would happen after a week or so of being on the new meds. I have an appointment with her tomorrow so I’m sure we will adjust accordingly. I’m counting down the minutes. It’s funny how we rely on a doctor and meds for our happiness. We schedule doctors appointments and shove pills down our throat all in hopes of being “normal” as normal as I can get :p I’m still a CrazyInHeels gal no matter how you look at. I view the world a little bit different, I have my own way of living and that’s how it’ll be and I’m happy with that. Still hanging on during this wild ride we call life… while being “crazy”. – XOXO CrazyInHeels

Return To Normalcy

Nicole — Fri, 30 Oct 2009 19:29:23 +0000

It was a little hard to get out of bed this morning but I did it anyways. As the morning progress’ I’m happy to report that my mood is significantly better than yesterday. I have more energy than the last couple of weeks. I think it makes me feel better just to go see my doctor and then know that I’m starting a new med that will make me feel better. Almost a relief that the happiness will return soon. I’m returning to a “normal” state of mind (whatever that is) without the manic depression or, unfortunately, the hypo-mania. I’m easier to talk to but not overly talkative. I’m not confined to my bed because of depression. I’m not combative and angry. I’m not overreacting and irrational. I’m coming back to me. -CrazyInHeels

My fiance noticed a difference already this morning. I’m sure he’s jumping for joy on the inside.

Thank God For My Doctor

Nicole — Fri, 30 Oct 2009 01:02:26 +0000

I got to see my doctor today… thank God!!!! I feel better just by going there. I have no problem admitting that I’m crazy and need drugs asap! She put me on a new drug Tegretol. So I’ll be on Lamictal and Tegretol. Hopefully this starts to make me feel better. I haven’t cried and screamed as much as yesterday. I got a little combative with my fiance yesterday, I was a little irrational. I can say that now, poor guy! It takes a lot to deal with us “crazy” people (I mean that in the nicest way possible). I’m trying to take care of myself and do things that aren’t stressful and take a lot of energy. I’m going to get through this, it will pass. – XOXO CrazyInHeels