Posts Tagged ‘crazy’

As if my life couldn’t get any crazier… I just found out the class I’m in for the next 7 weeks has two papers and a quiz due every week, OMG… my wedding is in 8 weeks. As I thought about my predicament, which is: 1) Crazy busy with work, I’m really trying to learn and grow more within my current job 2) Crazy busy with schoolwork, my nights disappear into books, papers, and research 3) My “spare” time which is far and few between is spent working on my wedding!!! Some would say “That’s too much to do, you’re crazy (yes, I am), where does all my time go, but then I had a new thought, I can think of this in a positive manner… 1) Job security 2) I’m obtaining an education that is priceless but also extremely empowering 3) I’m marrying an incredible man whom I love dearly! So, with my new found thought process I easily move from one task to the next. I feel like I’m happy, I have energy, and I’m accomplishing a lot but I also notice a slight weight loss, constant thoughts flying around in my head, last night I couldn’t fall asleep… am I slowly working my way into a manic state?! I wouldn’t mind the extra energy (who wouldn’t!) but I don’t want to crash!!! For now, I realize what might or might not be happening, being aware is what will help me deal with the “situation” at hand. I’ll be running around, crazy as ever… in heels none the less :) – CrazyInHeels

I think that “busy” is probably my most common word right now! I’m constantly on the go with all of the bridal preparations. I’m so happy to be doing great on my meds, we’ve finally found the right “cocktail” as some would say. I feel like I have everything under control, I can manage the stress well, and most importantly I wake up in a good mood! Oh, and the other good factor is that the new med (Seroquel XR) is not making me gain weight… thank goodness, I have a dress to fit into! When the stress builds, and it does, I don’t lose my mind like I do un-medicated. There are no crying spells because I can’t find a parking spot, I’m not agitated at the many people I have to talk too, and I have patience. We all know how all of those crazy emotions fly right out of us when we’re manic depressed or even manic, and I guess you could  even say this happens when you think you feel “normal” and believe me… normal is not part of my vocabulary! For now I’m in control & enjoying every moment (except when people piss me off for a moment, and that has happened). Although I’m a little crazy (or a lot) I can still manage to go to work, work on schoolwork, work on a website, and plan a wedding… this is a huge accomplishment! Perhaps I should go shoe shopping as a type of reward for good behavior ;p – XOXO CrazyInHeels

Remaining happy and positive about my upcoming events, busy but happy! Unfortunately I’m not feeling manic but I’m still able to have enough energy to get done what I need to get done. Weddings can get so “political” when you least expect it, I never thought I would feel that way… what’s a gril to do?? They say it’s “your special day”, whatever you want to do, you do… but that’s not always the case! I’m glad I’m medicated and smart enough to know when to slow down and when to say no. Surviving in this world on a day to day basis can be quite challenging, even more so when you’re blonde… oh…and crazy, OMG! Sometimes I want to scream at the top of my lungs and wave my white high heels in the air (yes, I most ceartinly have a pair).  I’m glad I’m at a stable point with my mood and my meds because if I was working full time, going to school, and planning a wedding I would lose my mind for sure, probably come to work with two different heels on ;p – XOXO CrazyInHeels

OMG, we just signed a contract to get married in less than three months, hence the hiatus for a week! How in the world is a “crazy” girl who has a full time job, going back to school, and working on a website supposed to get all of this done?! I think I should start a new blog that tracks my progress as the weeks fly by. So… I have one wish.. to be manic during the process ;p seriously I could use the extra energy right about now. Secondly, I hope all of this doesn’t trigger some manic depression, with all the added stress. I don’t necessarily see it as stress, this is such an exciting time, but… things are soooo busy for me (to say the least)!!! Wish me luck! – XOXO CrazyInHeels

“I’m the type of girl who will burst out laughing in dead silence because of something that happened yesterday!”- I heard this and had to post it because it’s 100% completely me! Is this because I’m crazy or just me being me?! Who knows, and most importantly, who in the world cares! The way I see it is, if I’m laughing that must mean I’m in a good mood and meds are working so I win either way!!!! – XOXO CrazyInHeels

I stumbled upon this article today and thought I would pass it on. For those of you that are crazy maybe this will make you feel normal… or you can relate… for which I can only laugh because I most certainly can, hahaha!

http://www.rd.com/living-healthy/are-you-normal-or-nuts-your-questions-answered/article177191.html

- XOXO CrazyInHeels

Breaking through the stigma associated with mental illness is something that we need to bring to light. Spreading the word and talking about it is the first step. People are afraid of what they don’t know and, in most cases, people have not taken the time to understand such a complex issue. Lets face it, if it doesn’t affect you directly you’re not to concerned about researching it. Every day people continue to live in their small world, their box of life, not venturing out into the unknown unless forced too. What can you personally do to contribute, spread the word? We can only control our own actions so it’s up to you to do something!!! Check out www.nami.org/template.cfm?section=fight_stigma to see how you can help. If you know of any additonal websites or organizations that people can visit to help please let me know! – XOXO CrazyInHeels