Posts Tagged ‘Confidence’

For some reason these thoughts came to me and I had to share because someone might need to hear this… I can sit and feel sorry for myself, which I suppose is ok every once in a while, but… just when you feel like you can’t go any further remember the strong confidence that is buried within you underneath all of the pain. The core of who you are is ALWAYS within you. I’ve cried, begged, and pleaded for all of the “crazy” sadness, tears, pain, and frustration to be removed and finally I feel these feelings slipping far away into the dark where they belong. If you’re stuck in that dark, dark hole right now please know that IT WILL PASS!!! Lean on others for support when you need too, it’s ok to let people in. I’m walking into my happy self again (in my heels of course). – XOXO CrazyInHeels

Unfortunately I’m back to my normal self (jk…somewhat). I have no signs of manic depression or any of the highs associated with mania L Don’t get me wrong I’m not sad to see the depression go… audios, hasta luego… don’t come back! But the mania … I will miss you dearly, I welcome you back anytime, the door is wide open! I’m trying to get back into the normal habits of life without all of the energy, confidence, and happiness. I’m sleeping in a little longer and crawling into bed just a little bit earlier. I find myself drifting back to caffeine and thank god I take adderall (a stimulant) because it gives me that little extra kick, not to mention brain power J Life is good and I’m trying to take it all in, in a normal state of mind. Do you think a normal state of mind is really a slightly depressed state of mind because we wish were mania? Every day I wake up in the hopes of being superwoman again but… I got nothin. I’m going to embrace my “normal” state of mind which is still “crazy” and move on. I’m different from others and I love it. This is who I am and if this is the worst health problem the “big guy” has blessed me with, them I’m gonna be ok.

 - XOXO CrazyInHeels