Posts Tagged ‘Anxiety’

Still going crazy! I’m at the end of my rope, I’m going to see the doctor in half an hour… thank God! My anxiety and agitation are at an all new high. I feel like screaming, crying, yelling, kicking and running. I feel like all my emotions are wound up tight in my head and ready to burst, my head aches. It’s moments like this that make you want to kick up your heels and wave your white flag “I surrender, I surrender”. I know it will pass but WTF I hate this!!! Ok, I’m done complaining. I’m thinking positive, positive, positive thoughts; shopping, manicures, pedicures, massages, shopping, new pair of heels, more shopping… starting to smile This will pass, this will pass. TaTa for now. – XOXO CrazyInHeels

I’m lost as to what mood I’m in at this precise moment. Today has been a whirlwind. I was tired this morning, then agitated & moody, then talkative & excited then all the way back to agitated and moody. Can someone point me in the direction of “normal” (if there is such a thing?)! Sometimes I get so sick of all these “crazy” feelings that I want to wine, complain, scream, cry, pout, and burry myself under my covers! If you want the truth… some days are just down right shitty!!! Ok, Ok… I’m done complaining for now. I’m giving myself time to wallow and then I’m back to seeing the positive in life, even though it’s next to impossible sometimes. Closing my eyes hoping tomorrow brings much happiness. -XOXO CrazyInHeels

Happy that I am consistently waking up in a good mood and that I’m able to get myself out of bed. I’m still not a morning person but I feel as though I have a reason to get out of bed. Last night I was relieved that my anxiety did not make it’s daily visit. I went home and was able to cook dinner, clean up, do laundry, and catch up with friends all with a happy attitude It’s crazy to think that because of a few small pills the “crazy” thoughts and depression are subdued. – CrazyInHeels

I’m trying to work on time management in the hopes of having less stress which in turn will lead to less anxiety (I hope!). I’ve made a list of things that I need to get done in the next few weeks and am putting them in order of importance. Just because I’m “crazy” doesn’t mean that I need to stop LIVING! Yes, I’m emotional; Yes, I’m sensitive; Yes, I need rest; Yes, I’m easily overwhelmed at times; Yes, I talk to myself sometimes.. hahaha, but I can still live and make something out of myself. I might have a mental breakdown in the middle of week or even my day, but I’ll keep going. It’s not where I’ve been but where I’m going! – XOXO CrazyInHeels

I’m not sure if my meds are working particularly great today or if it’s because it’s Friday (or both) but I’m in a great mood today. The anxiety about my anxiety that camps out in my throat is not as bad as it normally is, at this moment. I’m happy to be me and happy to be at the emotional mood I’m in at this moment. All I can do is be present in this moment. I’m making an effort to relax & take time for me. If I’m constantly on the go I know that at some point I’ll come to a screeching halt (lose my mind) not a pretty site! Since I’m now going to be tackling the art of “Cognitive Thinking” I might grab a book and read up. I need to get a better control of my thoughts ASAP!!! (say a prayer!) - XOXO CrazyInHeels

I saw the doctor this morning and have been told that I have anxiety about a lot of different things but now I’m having anxiety about having anxiety!!! I had no idea that was possible?! After I listed off about eight different things that are major life events that are causing me stress and anxiety I looked right at the doctor and said “what do I do? I need to know exactly how to fix it!” He said “We’re going to work on Cognitive thinking”. I’m up for it but I definatley wanted to know the succcess rate. He laughed and I said “How successful is it with blonde’s?” which made him laugh.  Cognitive thinking… hopefully the answer to my prayers. – XOXO CrazyInHeels

I’m back to seeing my psychologist. I decided that I’ve been through a lot in the last six months and I need to talk and walk through all of my feelings. A girl can only handle so much! The tension, anxiety, stress, and lump in my throat are going to make me age faster and that is not allowed!!! As I walked out of the office (in heels non the less) I felt some of my anxiety melt away. As I start to understand where it is coming from, I can now work on dealing with the underlying problem. Admitting you’re crazy is the first step, then you must do all you can to get the tools to help you live a normal life, it’s possible! – XOXO CrazyInHeels