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I have come to learn a few important things over the last year and I would like to verbalize them… just to make sure some people understand me!!!…

- Yup, I’m blonde and cute… but that doesn’t make me dumb!

- I’m motivated, driven, and oh yeah…. still smart!

- I’ve learned to stand up for myself and own my own power!

- I’m not going to let people “think” they’re superior to me… as they AREN”T!

- I have enough confidence to walk away from people that are disrespecting me!

- Wow… I finally know how strong and confident I am, love it!

Moving onward and upward in success! (Because I’m capable of it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!)

Yay, I’m still in a good mood. The new med is working great!!! I’m thankful I was able to take the week off of work to get back to the crazy silly girl I am but I’m going stir crazy…. so … stir crazy & mental crazy, what a combo! I’m excited to get back to reality. I have a few friends getting married in the next month so I will be VERY busy for the next few weeks. I’m looking forward to being able to celebrate, the crazy girl I’ve been the last month would not be able to stop crying long enough to make a toast. I didn’t think I would ever get back to “me” but I did and I’m excited to get back out there, heels and all!!! – XOXO CrazyInHeels

Where am I today… somewhere in between normal and crazy. I guess maybe this is where I’m supposed to be since I’m “crazy”. The last week has been rough. I’m happy and normal all day and then something switches to the on position and I’m angry, sad and agitated… WTF?! We’re adjusting my meds accordingly, hoping to get to the exact dosage my body needs, tricky task I must say. In the mean time I feel happy at times but with the lingering possibility that I can go from zero to crazy in point two seconds. I guess sometimes you just have to grab on and hold on to the possibility that “normal” will return, at least I hope. The feelings of “losing my mind” will slowly slip into yesterdays memory. For now, I’ll hope for a best and enjoy my time off as I travel along the journey… back to normal! – XOXO CrazyInHeels

I feel frustrated and stuck!!! Trying to find the solution, the path to happiness. How do you get from point A  to B when you’re not fully medicated?? That’s all I have for today. – XOXO CrazyInHeels

PS Even  though things get hard I  still repeat in my head the things I’m thankful for even if I don’t fully believe it, it does help!!!

Interesting thought… “Does God make us uncomfortable with the comfortable when we don’t listen and try to do things our way in hopes of redirecting us?” Is anxiety in fact a divine intervention,if I may, that screams “TIME FOR A CHANGE, YOUR WAY IS NOT THE RIGHT WAY!!!” I never thought of this but it seems to make great sense when you start to think about it. Like I’ve said many times you are the author of “Your Story” and only you can write the ending. If you’re not happy with ANY aspect of your life… change it! Seems simple right, not always the case! What can I do today to make my life better… happier. I’m not going to get any closer to happiness if I continue to sit back, relax, and wait for the changes to happen. I’m confident in the fact that for today I’m doing everything I can to better myself and continue on the path of self discovery and happiness. I’m taking meds, seeing my doctors, continuing my education, yoga, and eating healthier. I control my happiness, not my “crazy” disease. Who or what controls your happiness, is it you?! – XOXO CrazyInHeels

Today is a great day! My new medication is working well with my body, a few minor side effects but no weight gain! I can’t beleive they finally made a pill that is effective without the dreaded weight gain, yay! I feel like the fog of depression and anxiety has lifted. I’m able to wake up in a good mood and stay in a good mood. – XOXO CrazyInHeels

NIMH ~ National Institute of Mental Health.

This is a great link to find some general information about the “Crazy” disease…

http://nimh.nih.gov/health/publications/bipolar-disorder/complete-index.shtml

When I discovered that I was “Crazy” I quickly became addicted, in a good way, to learning about what the heck is wrong with me. I believe that the more you know the better off your going to be. You’ll learn to recognize what’s going on with your thoughts, your moods, and your body. Educating myself was the best thing I could’ve ever done.