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Still doing good, happy to report! I’m waking up in a good mood and staying in a good mood, this is so exciting! I don’t think you can truly appreciate the good days without experiencing the bad days. I believe that because I’m, oh… soooo… blessed with being crazy, I’m more in tune with my emotions and I experience life on a different level than others. Now, I know that can sound crazy in and of it self but those of you that are “crazy” get it and those of you that don’t.. too bad! haha I chose to see the positive side of this disease because that’s the only way I’m going to make it through this oh.. soooo.. crazy life!  I don’t feel bad for myself, pity myself, blame, or make excuses for myself. Sure, I’m a little “crazy” but who isn’t?? I have just as much of right to be here experiencing life as the next person. Life is what you chose to make of it. If you think something is wrong, go to the doctor. I’m tellin ya… you can feel normal! Get of your bootie, dust off you heels and start living!!! – XOXO CrazyInHeels

I’ve successfully made it through an entire week of work without losing my mind, so to speak! This was the first full week of work I’ve had in a while, the last two months had been horrible. I love it when I find the right “cocktail” of meds, not an easy task! Nothing like a crazy blond girl running around in her heels crying for no reason, those days are gone for now! Unless I see a really sappy commercial or read a great Hallmark card, yes… I’m that girl! My days are back to being full of fun, friends, laughing, and most importantly… shopping! Don’t worry I’m not “Manic” shopping, I’m reasonably shopping ;p if there is such a thing. Not sure what I’m doing tonight but I know it will at least involve a glass of wine and relaxing. - XOXO CrazyInHeels

What a great day to go to happy hour and have a margarita! That’s what I need after yesterday, a drink! I had to spend $500 on my car when all I went to get was an oil change, OMG! I’m just glad that I at least had the money to pay for it, like it or not! That’s the way you have to look at “life” sometimes. Meds are still working great and I’m busy running around doing this, that, and the other. I stopped at the mall to get a gift for someone and it took all I had not to wand over to look at the heels, the dresses, the jeans… and whatever else I could possibly buy that I would love to add to my already overextended wardrobe (as if that’s possible :p ) As I left the mall I was happy that my “Manic Shopping Girl” didn’t come out as I wandered through all the lovely’s, haha!!! – XOXO CrazyInHeels

I started saying OMG making fun of everyone that says it because everyone abbreviates everything and it seems like such a “tweeny” think to do (is that even the right label??) but then I started saying it ALL the time, negating all reason for saying it in the first place! OMG!! HAHA Anyways, back to my life, which is sooo normal it’s crazy! I’m so happy that we have FINALLY found the right cocktail of medications again. If you’re in the middle of a med change, or need to make a med change, or you’re so sad right now… please know that it’ll pass! Go to the doctor & work with them on starting meds or simply making some adjustments. There is no reason for you to continue living in sadness, moodiness, craziness, agitation, and frustration… come to the light! I’m fully medicated and loving life again, heels and all! I’m able to meet with friend for a martini, shop at the mall w/out losing my mind when I can’t find a parking spot, enjoy calling friends to catch up, enjoy going to work, and of course getting dressed up for a night on the town…. heels… check… dress… check… makeup… check… I feel alive again!- XOXO CrazyInHeels

Crazy busy right now, wearin down the heels of my heels ;p I’m glad to be feeling like a “normal” person that can function in the real world! The days are busy and can be very long but I’m living and learning with a normal state of mind, well… as normal as I can get?! I’m glad to leave behind the sad bottomless pit that I was stuck whirling aimlessly around for weeks. I feel like I feel more, love more, and live more because I’m blessed with this fabulous “mental disorder”. I experienced the worst of the worst but it makes me appreciate the best of the best! My emotions run deeper than most as my mind wanders to the extreme side of every emotion. Happy for now and enjoying ever minute of it! – XOXO CrazyInHeels

For some reason these thoughts came to me and I had to share because someone might need to hear this… I can sit and feel sorry for myself, which I suppose is ok every once in a while, but… just when you feel like you can’t go any further remember the strong confidence that is buried within you underneath all of the pain. The core of who you are is ALWAYS within you. I’ve cried, begged, and pleaded for all of the “crazy” sadness, tears, pain, and frustration to be removed and finally I feel these feelings slipping far away into the dark where they belong. If you’re stuck in that dark, dark hole right now please know that IT WILL PASS!!! Lean on others for support when you need too, it’s ok to let people in. I’m walking into my happy self again (in my heels of course). – XOXO CrazyInHeels

Sometimes I have to remind myself that I can only think about one day at a time and one foot in front of the other. I must allow for patience, very hard sometimes! I think I’ve finally found the right med, and I’m not gaining weight, yay! For the last month I’ve felt like a human guinea pig as I tried three different medications. It was definitely frustrating, to say the least. I’m happy to say that I can finally see the light at the end of the tunnel… “normal life” I’m thankful that I was able to take the week off so I could focus on getting better without the added stress. I’m actually excited to go back to work because I’m going stir crazy and day time television sucks the intelligence right out of a person. I’ve kicked my heels up for long enough, it’s time to get back to reality… & being happy!!! – XOXO CrazyInHeels