The anxiety subsided last night but has so politely decided to kick up her heels again and plant herself in my thoughts, haunting me. I have a huge lump of tension in my throat that I can’t shake away for the life of me and I feel like my heart is about to jump out of my chest. I wish I had a “normal” pill that I could take to make these feelings go away. I haven’t felt like this for a couple of weeks. If I know what these feelings are and they eventually go away then why the hell must I focus on every symptom and blow it out of proportion in my thoughts only to intensify the feelings? I try to make myself not think about it but the feelings consume my every thought. It’s the only thing I can focus on. Forget getting my work done, thinking about what’s for dinner, having a normal conversation… my mind is in a state of panic.

- XOXO CrazyInHeels