You know those feelings of complete euphoria?! LOVE THAT!!! You feel like you’re on top of the world and every single idea that you have is the best one that has ever been thought of :p You constantly feel like your full of energy, your friends love you, everyone at work thinks you’re on top of the world, you’re soooo creative, and hello you actually wake up just before that alarm clock goes off because even as you sleep your mind is going so fast it’s made a speed dash for the finish line which falls just shy of the time you’ve set your alarm because your mind is just soooo… so… very excited to wake up and go, go, go (you know what I’m talking about, if not… to bad for you!). Sometimes right before I’ve gone to bed I’ve seriously had this thought “I wonder how much I could I get done if I just stay up all night… but, would Brian notice because he would just think I’m absolutely crazy (I am, but do we really need labels?!!!) 

I love this state of mind because I’m in such a good mood, people love being around me, I love being around people and I feel so confident. If I could package this feeling in a bottle I would make millions!!!  

Now for the flip-side, everything that has that much pleasure has pain…

When I’m not in this absolutely euphoric, crazy, wonderful, fabulous state of mind, I barely have enough energy to hit the snooze button on my alarm. If my Brian wasn’t lying in bed next to me I might be too tired to even hit the snooze button. When I finally peel myself out of bed it is an absolute chore to put myself together… I barely have enough energy to stand in the shower let alone stand while I’m blow drying my hair and applying makeup. After I’ve painstakingly made it through the primping process I make it to work only to be extremely annoyed by the mere existence of the people around me. It has absolutely nothing to do with them and they have done nothing to me but I just have this overwhelming feeling of anger, sadness, frustration, excuse my words… fu*#!** crazy! I would prefer to go home, lay in bed, and cry. I don’t know what it is about crying but it really does help me feel better.

When five o’clock strikes I’m bolting to my car for some therapy… I turn off the music and cry my eyes out. Eventually I stop and calm down. I wish I could convey this overwhelming feeling of sadness to others, but I guess it’s good that they don’t have to deal with such a devastating feeling.    I’m CRAZY IN HEELS  and know it!